So midnight tonight is the start of NaNoWriMo, also known as the beginning of my hibernation. For those of you who don't know what NaNoWriMo is, it is National Novel Writing Month, and basically the objective is to write 50 000 words in thirty days (I made a video about it here. Watch it and leave comments/video responses!).
I know I'm pretty crazy for attempting to do this. But I love writing, and I've been told I'm pretty good at it, so I figure, why not? It's something fun to do, and it's a good way to really set a goal and make myself write. Even if I don't get to 50 000 words, I can still say I tried, and I can still say I wrote however many words I get to. But, just so you guys know, I probably won't be blogging as much this next month, because I will be very busy writing a novel. I'll try to post sometimes, because if nothing else, it'll be good when I have writer's block, or I just need a break from my novel. If you guys could give me some encouragement throughout this month, as I do something really crazy, that would be great! You're all awesome!
High: I got to go to a friend's house for a really yummy supper and some great socializing with friends.
Low: it is seriously cold here! I mean, I know it's almost November, but still! It was kind of warm this week, but today felt like the middle of winter!
Thankful: that I have the time to attempt to write a novel!
Books read this year: 39 (I am less than 50 pages away from finishing number 40. NaNoWriMo will not be the reason I don't finish my book challenge!)
love <3
P.S. As I mentioned above, I have started vlogging as well! In this past week, I have posted two videos on youtube and I would really appreciate it if you guys checked them out, and left some comments or something. My channel is www.youtube.com/seanababy16 Thanks darlings!
Sunday, October 31, 2010
Monday, October 25, 2010
Your Turn!
At the end of my last post, I asked you guys to leave a comment, telling me that you read my blog. It was mostly geared towards the people I actually know, although I would genuinely love to know if you stumbled upon this blog and continue to read it! (That sounded really awkward...hopefully you know what I mean!)
One thing I really don't want this blog to be about is just a day-to-day "and then I did this, and then I did this, and then this happened" type of thing, because that's kind of boring. My life isn't that exciting. I like having specific things to discuss in my blog, whether it's something in my life, something in the news, that kind of stuff. But I like being able to discuss things.
But not that many things happen in my life that I could discuss, and some of the things that happen, I think other people would find extremely boring. So now it's your turn. In the comments, I want you guys to tell me things you would like me to discuss or comment on in the near future. It could be anything, from my favourite TV shows, to how I feel about some issue in the news, to pretty much anything. Be creative, and tell me what you want to see. You guys are the ones reading this blog, not me, so I want to write about things that you want to read about! Leave a comment, I will try to use as many ideas as I can, though it might take a while to get through them.*
High: I went to the dollar store tonight and got almost all the pieces for my Halloween costume. It's going to be epic!
Low: I have a lot of school stuff this week (mid-terms, assignments, labs, quizzes) and it's kind of stressing me out.
Thankful: that we're getting a new fridge tomorrow, because ours currently isn't working!
Books read this year: 39 (I'm starting to get nervous I won't get to 50, especially with NaNoWriMo starting next week!)
love <3
*This sentence totally makes it sound like I think there's going to be hundreds of suggestions, which I highly doubt, as I think...six people read this blog. I just meant that I'm busy, and don't have time to blog every day.
One thing I really don't want this blog to be about is just a day-to-day "and then I did this, and then I did this, and then this happened" type of thing, because that's kind of boring. My life isn't that exciting. I like having specific things to discuss in my blog, whether it's something in my life, something in the news, that kind of stuff. But I like being able to discuss things.
But not that many things happen in my life that I could discuss, and some of the things that happen, I think other people would find extremely boring. So now it's your turn. In the comments, I want you guys to tell me things you would like me to discuss or comment on in the near future. It could be anything, from my favourite TV shows, to how I feel about some issue in the news, to pretty much anything. Be creative, and tell me what you want to see. You guys are the ones reading this blog, not me, so I want to write about things that you want to read about! Leave a comment, I will try to use as many ideas as I can, though it might take a while to get through them.*
High: I went to the dollar store tonight and got almost all the pieces for my Halloween costume. It's going to be epic!
Low: I have a lot of school stuff this week (mid-terms, assignments, labs, quizzes) and it's kind of stressing me out.
Thankful: that we're getting a new fridge tomorrow, because ours currently isn't working!
Books read this year: 39 (I'm starting to get nervous I won't get to 50, especially with NaNoWriMo starting next week!)
love <3
*This sentence totally makes it sound like I think there's going to be hundreds of suggestions, which I highly doubt, as I think...six people read this blog. I just meant that I'm busy, and don't have time to blog every day.
Friday, October 22, 2010
On Happiness...and Babbling
I'm really happy right now. Like, really happy. This might not be a really big deal for most people: there's lots of people all over the world who are really happy on a regular basis. But I've never really been that unfortunate. Okay, that made it sound like I've had a really hard life. It hasn't actually been that bad. From when I was eleven until I was about 18 was probably the hardest time; a lot of not so fun stuff happened then; I won't get into it now. But if you really want to know, just ask! I don't mind. :)
Anyway...the very boring story of teenage angst is so not the point of this post. The point is...I'm happy. I've previously mentioned that this past summer, while working at camp, was possibly the happiest time of my life, and this still remains true. I can't talk about camp without a feeling of complete joy and love filling up my chest. However, towards the end of the summer, I was quite concerned that that happiness would disappear when camp was over: when I had to return to the "real world", to school, to my real life, that I would not be as happy; that I would almost get kind of depressed, from missing camp, and almost from "real world shock".* But, very fortunately, that is not what happened at all. I mean, at first I was really upset about camp being over, but it didn't last very long, and although I miss everyone I worked with so much that it sometimes hurts, and even though I would go back in a heart beat, I'm not in withdrawl and I'm totally not depressed about camp.
I kind of just went off on a little bit of a tangent...The point is, camp ended almost two months ago, and I'm still really happy. This makes me think that, although camp was the initial source of my happiness, it's not the reason for my happiness. If it was all camp, and only camp, that happiness would now be long gone. But it's not. I'm still really happy, two months later, and I really don't think there's anything else that could have caused this: it's all left over from camp.
I feel like I just babbled a lot about nothing. I'm sorry. If you actually read all of that, I'm kind of impressed. I guess there's people out there who really care about what I have to say. Huh. Who'da thunk it.
High: earlier this afternoon, I decided to make cookies, but after I'd mixed up all the ingredients, I decided that I didn't really have the patience to bake it. So I saved it as cookie dough, to eat...as cookie dough. :)
Low: I went to the bank to inquire about getting a credit card, and I found out I need to have a job to get a credit card. Ew. Also, I love cooking with onions, but I hate cutting them. This is a huge problem.
Thankful: that it's the weekend. I have some serious studying to do for next week.
Books read this year: 39
love <3
P.S. If you read this, and you're someone I actually know in real life, leave a comment! Even if it just says that you read it, and that's all, that's so fine by me! I love finding out when people I know actually take the time to read what I have to say. I makes me feel like I'm not just talking to myself on the Internet. So let me know if you're reading this! (Of course, even if you don't know me in real life, and you just found my blog and decided to read it, you can still comment, telling me you read it. I'm actually so curious how many readers I have!)
*Camp is like a bubble. For pretty much the entire summer, I had no idea what was going on pretty much anywhere in the world. It was just camp, with all the same counsellors, for three months. The campers changed every 12 days, but other than that, it really was like being in a completely oblivious bubble for three months.
Anyway...the very boring story of teenage angst is so not the point of this post. The point is...I'm happy. I've previously mentioned that this past summer, while working at camp, was possibly the happiest time of my life, and this still remains true. I can't talk about camp without a feeling of complete joy and love filling up my chest. However, towards the end of the summer, I was quite concerned that that happiness would disappear when camp was over: when I had to return to the "real world", to school, to my real life, that I would not be as happy; that I would almost get kind of depressed, from missing camp, and almost from "real world shock".* But, very fortunately, that is not what happened at all. I mean, at first I was really upset about camp being over, but it didn't last very long, and although I miss everyone I worked with so much that it sometimes hurts, and even though I would go back in a heart beat, I'm not in withdrawl and I'm totally not depressed about camp.
I kind of just went off on a little bit of a tangent...The point is, camp ended almost two months ago, and I'm still really happy. This makes me think that, although camp was the initial source of my happiness, it's not the reason for my happiness. If it was all camp, and only camp, that happiness would now be long gone. But it's not. I'm still really happy, two months later, and I really don't think there's anything else that could have caused this: it's all left over from camp.
I feel like I just babbled a lot about nothing. I'm sorry. If you actually read all of that, I'm kind of impressed. I guess there's people out there who really care about what I have to say. Huh. Who'da thunk it.
High: earlier this afternoon, I decided to make cookies, but after I'd mixed up all the ingredients, I decided that I didn't really have the patience to bake it. So I saved it as cookie dough, to eat...as cookie dough. :)
Low: I went to the bank to inquire about getting a credit card, and I found out I need to have a job to get a credit card. Ew. Also, I love cooking with onions, but I hate cutting them. This is a huge problem.
Thankful: that it's the weekend. I have some serious studying to do for next week.
Books read this year: 39
love <3
P.S. If you read this, and you're someone I actually know in real life, leave a comment! Even if it just says that you read it, and that's all, that's so fine by me! I love finding out when people I know actually take the time to read what I have to say. I makes me feel like I'm not just talking to myself on the Internet. So let me know if you're reading this! (Of course, even if you don't know me in real life, and you just found my blog and decided to read it, you can still comment, telling me you read it. I'm actually so curious how many readers I have!)
*Camp is like a bubble. For pretty much the entire summer, I had no idea what was going on pretty much anywhere in the world. It was just camp, with all the same counsellors, for three months. The campers changed every 12 days, but other than that, it really was like being in a completely oblivious bubble for three months.
Monday, October 18, 2010
Christmas and cookie dough :)
I have a chemistry test the day after tomorrow. I'm supposed to be studying for it right now. I don't really want to study, so instead I'm going to write a blog! Yay!
When I started writing this blog back in April, I kind of made a pact with myself. I know that sounds kind of lame, but there were certain things I wanted for this blog (and I certain things I definitely didn't want) and I wanted to try and keep myself on track with those things. One of the things in my pact was that I would not whine about school. I know I kind of did that way back near the beginning, but that was because it was right in the middle of final exams, and also because I was doing BEDA and some days, there really was nothing else to say. But now that I have no need to blog every day, I can blog when I want, I don't really want to use that time and those words to whine about school. I do that enough in the real world, and really, no one wants to listen to some girl complain about school when there are so many bigger problems in the world (not that me not whining about school is going to solve world hunger or anything, but you get my drift). So I guess where I'm going with this is I want to apologize for yesterday. I'm trying to deal with some things in my personal life right now, and a lot of them center around me trying to understand the point of school. I guess I just have some friends who see school as the most important thing in the world and they put everything else above it. That's just not what I believe and not how I want to live my life. It was just really getting on my nerves and it all kind of exploded last night. So for that, I am sorry.
Now that I'm done rambling on about school...on to new things! So Christmas is my favourite time of the entire year. No, I lied. My actual favourite time of the year is from November 12 to January 16, because all the good things happen during those two months: my mom's birthday is November 12, and then it starts getting closer to Christmas, and then it's time to decorate, and listen to/sing Christmas music, then it usually snows, then exams are over, then I get to go home, celebrate Christmakkuh with some family, then it's Christmas, which I love more than words can describe, then it's the week between Christmas and New Year's, when I get to see most of my extended family and play in the snow, a lot. Then it's New Year's, and then January 16 is my birthday. See? All the good things happen during those two months. Anyway, I know Christmas is over two months away (68 days, actually. I just counted) but for some reason, I've been feeling really excited and Christmasy lately. Which is really out of character for me, because I really hate when things start getting all set for Christmas too early. Like, one of my biggest pet peeves is when people have their Christmas lights on the day after Halloween and you can see their Christmas tree in their window. Just because it's November doesn't mean it's suddenly, automatically Christmas and that it's acceptable to have that many lights and decorations up. My reaction to people getting ready for Christmas so early is kind of surprising, especially to me, because I love Christmas so much and you would think I'd be all ready to start getting into the spirit as early as I can. I think the reason I hate it coming too early is because I love it so much and I don't want to ruin it by getting sick of it before it even really happens. Does that make any sense? I just love Christmas way more than is probably appropriate, but I don't see that there's a problem with that. Do you?
So lately I've kind of been think about some of my favourite childhood memories, like spending every summer and every weekend during the winter at my cottage; playing the most random make-believe games by myself because I have no siblings; wishing I was the third Olsen twin, stuff like that. So I wanted to ask you guys: what are some of your favourite childhood memories? Let me know in the comments!
High: I went grocery shopping today and (almost) bought premade cookie dough. Not to bake, but to just eat, as cookie dough.
Low: as much as I wanted the cookie dough, I couldn't afford to buy it when I didn't really need it.
Thankful: that I have all the ingredients in my house to make cookie dough, should I so desire.
(I have no idea where are this talk of cookie dough came from, but now I really want to go make some.)
Books read this year: 39 (I'm so close! I hope I can do it!)
love <3
When I started writing this blog back in April, I kind of made a pact with myself. I know that sounds kind of lame, but there were certain things I wanted for this blog (and I certain things I definitely didn't want) and I wanted to try and keep myself on track with those things. One of the things in my pact was that I would not whine about school. I know I kind of did that way back near the beginning, but that was because it was right in the middle of final exams, and also because I was doing BEDA and some days, there really was nothing else to say. But now that I have no need to blog every day, I can blog when I want, I don't really want to use that time and those words to whine about school. I do that enough in the real world, and really, no one wants to listen to some girl complain about school when there are so many bigger problems in the world (not that me not whining about school is going to solve world hunger or anything, but you get my drift). So I guess where I'm going with this is I want to apologize for yesterday. I'm trying to deal with some things in my personal life right now, and a lot of them center around me trying to understand the point of school. I guess I just have some friends who see school as the most important thing in the world and they put everything else above it. That's just not what I believe and not how I want to live my life. It was just really getting on my nerves and it all kind of exploded last night. So for that, I am sorry.
Now that I'm done rambling on about school...on to new things! So Christmas is my favourite time of the entire year. No, I lied. My actual favourite time of the year is from November 12 to January 16, because all the good things happen during those two months: my mom's birthday is November 12, and then it starts getting closer to Christmas, and then it's time to decorate, and listen to/sing Christmas music, then it usually snows, then exams are over, then I get to go home, celebrate Christmakkuh with some family, then it's Christmas, which I love more than words can describe, then it's the week between Christmas and New Year's, when I get to see most of my extended family and play in the snow, a lot. Then it's New Year's, and then January 16 is my birthday. See? All the good things happen during those two months. Anyway, I know Christmas is over two months away (68 days, actually. I just counted) but for some reason, I've been feeling really excited and Christmasy lately. Which is really out of character for me, because I really hate when things start getting all set for Christmas too early. Like, one of my biggest pet peeves is when people have their Christmas lights on the day after Halloween and you can see their Christmas tree in their window. Just because it's November doesn't mean it's suddenly, automatically Christmas and that it's acceptable to have that many lights and decorations up. My reaction to people getting ready for Christmas so early is kind of surprising, especially to me, because I love Christmas so much and you would think I'd be all ready to start getting into the spirit as early as I can. I think the reason I hate it coming too early is because I love it so much and I don't want to ruin it by getting sick of it before it even really happens. Does that make any sense? I just love Christmas way more than is probably appropriate, but I don't see that there's a problem with that. Do you?
So lately I've kind of been think about some of my favourite childhood memories, like spending every summer and every weekend during the winter at my cottage; playing the most random make-believe games by myself because I have no siblings; wishing I was the third Olsen twin, stuff like that. So I wanted to ask you guys: what are some of your favourite childhood memories? Let me know in the comments!
High: I went grocery shopping today and (almost) bought premade cookie dough. Not to bake, but to just eat, as cookie dough.
Low: as much as I wanted the cookie dough, I couldn't afford to buy it when I didn't really need it.
Thankful: that I have all the ingredients in my house to make cookie dough, should I so desire.
(I have no idea where are this talk of cookie dough came from, but now I really want to go make some.)
Books read this year: 39 (I'm so close! I hope I can do it!)
love <3
Sunday, October 17, 2010
friends are forever
Sleepovers: nails, makeup, hair, pictures, movies, popcorn. Sleepovers were my childhood. I loved going over to someone's house with a couple other friends and just hanging out for the night. Sleepovers were the highlight of my week, sometimes of my entire month. Last night, I had the first girl-y sleepover since I don't even know when.
One of my really good friends, Sam, come over last night, just after 6. We made supper, talked, hung out, had a few drinks, laughed about things that were not really very funny this morning, took silly pictures and just had a genuinely good time. We ended the night by watching High School Musical 3 (I love HSM. Don't judge) for the sole reason that she had never seen it. Then we curled up in bed and talked for a while, before finally falling asleep much earlier than we probably would have otherwise. This morning, we made breakfast (I had Toaster Strudels for the first time. It was epic), hung out, watched silly youtube videos (I cannot get this song out of my head! And this one's pretty catchy as well.) and just had some fun girl time. It might have been one of my best Saturday nights recently.
I think the reason I had so much fun was that I haven't really been spending that much time with my good friends since I've been back. I mean, I either only see them every two or three weeks, or, if I see them even once or twice a week, there's always lots of other people around and I don't really get to spend any real time with them. I have some really amazing people in my life that I consider good friends and I hate that I don't really ever get to see them, because they are so important to me. And I know I'm here for school, not for socializing, but I can't spend my entire five years of university not socializing at all! I mean, I know school's important, but it's not that important. Really, I just want to get my degree, graduate, and be done. I don't plan on applying to do my masters or anything like that. I might do a year or two of college, so that I can learn something that will actually get me a job, but other than that, once I'm done this degree, I'm done school for good. So, although marks are important, they aren't that important. I care, but I don't let school completely rule my life.
I just went off on a huge tangent, and I apologize. I know for some people, school and marks are really important, and not being at the top of their class isn't acceptable. But that's just not me. I'll do my best, and if my best only gets me a C or a B, well so be it. I don't even know what my GPA is and I don't care. Why does it matter? I'm actually serious: why does it matter what my GPA is?
That was not what this post was supposed to be about. It was supposed to be about how much I love my friends and how sad I am that I don't get to spend enough time with them, because they are all so amazing. So, from now on, friends come before school...to a certain extent. I'm not going to stop going to class and doing work, but if a friend needs me, or something comes up, or one of my friends that I've barely seen is around, I will make time. School will be over, but friends should be around forever. My friends are what matters to me, and I will do everything I can to make time for them in my life.
High: watching HSM3 with Sam. Love the movie, love the girl.
Low: I messed up my ankle Friday night and it's still swollen and kind of sore. But I can at least walk on it today, which is more than I could do yesterday.
Thankful: that I have such amazing friends in my life, who will always be there.
Books read this year: 39
love <3
One of my really good friends, Sam, come over last night, just after 6. We made supper, talked, hung out, had a few drinks, laughed about things that were not really very funny this morning, took silly pictures and just had a genuinely good time. We ended the night by watching High School Musical 3 (I love HSM. Don't judge) for the sole reason that she had never seen it. Then we curled up in bed and talked for a while, before finally falling asleep much earlier than we probably would have otherwise. This morning, we made breakfast (I had Toaster Strudels for the first time. It was epic), hung out, watched silly youtube videos (I cannot get this song out of my head! And this one's pretty catchy as well.) and just had some fun girl time. It might have been one of my best Saturday nights recently.
I think the reason I had so much fun was that I haven't really been spending that much time with my good friends since I've been back. I mean, I either only see them every two or three weeks, or, if I see them even once or twice a week, there's always lots of other people around and I don't really get to spend any real time with them. I have some really amazing people in my life that I consider good friends and I hate that I don't really ever get to see them, because they are so important to me. And I know I'm here for school, not for socializing, but I can't spend my entire five years of university not socializing at all! I mean, I know school's important, but it's not that important. Really, I just want to get my degree, graduate, and be done. I don't plan on applying to do my masters or anything like that. I might do a year or two of college, so that I can learn something that will actually get me a job, but other than that, once I'm done this degree, I'm done school for good. So, although marks are important, they aren't that important. I care, but I don't let school completely rule my life.
I just went off on a huge tangent, and I apologize. I know for some people, school and marks are really important, and not being at the top of their class isn't acceptable. But that's just not me. I'll do my best, and if my best only gets me a C or a B, well so be it. I don't even know what my GPA is and I don't care. Why does it matter? I'm actually serious: why does it matter what my GPA is?
That was not what this post was supposed to be about. It was supposed to be about how much I love my friends and how sad I am that I don't get to spend enough time with them, because they are all so amazing. So, from now on, friends come before school...to a certain extent. I'm not going to stop going to class and doing work, but if a friend needs me, or something comes up, or one of my friends that I've barely seen is around, I will make time. School will be over, but friends should be around forever. My friends are what matters to me, and I will do everything I can to make time for them in my life.
High: watching HSM3 with Sam. Love the movie, love the girl.
Low: I messed up my ankle Friday night and it's still swollen and kind of sore. But I can at least walk on it today, which is more than I could do yesterday.
Thankful: that I have such amazing friends in my life, who will always be there.
Books read this year: 39
love <3
Sunday, October 3, 2010
six month anniversary!
Today is the six-month anniversary of my blog! How exciting is that?! I can't believe how quickly the last six months have gone by! I realize I say that about pretty much everything, but it's true! So for today's post, which I want to kind of be special and a big deal, I am going to list my favourite parts of the last six months! People who have been reading this for the last six months can probably already guess what a lot of these are going to be, but maybe not! I'm going to try to keep these in order of when they happened, but I have a bad memory, plus I'm kind of ADD, so they'll probably all be pretty random. Here goes:
High: getting a free lunch at church today. It was for young adults and it was yummy!
Low: we don't have cable at our house, so I can't watch either Desperate Housewives or The Amazing Race tonight, I have to wait until it comes online. What a hard life I lead. lol
Thankful: for the very unseasonal, yet amazing weather we've had for the last couple days. It's like summer, again...in October...
Books read this year: 38
love <3
- finishing my second year of university!
- Hedley concert just hours after finishing my last exam!
- BEDA...even though I kind of failed at the end
- home for a month!
- driving 1600km in two days with someone who I normally have pretty much nothing to say to.
- CAMP! I don't even know how to describe this summer, there are way too many memorable and amazing things that happened this summer, it would take forever for me to try and describe just how awesomely perfect this summer was. Here is the best way for me to do it: Shine, Tiffany, I'yonna, Savannah, Kourtnie, Calli; Whisper, Kisha, Sam, Taylor, Adrianna, BJ, Emily, Anna, Marisha; Oups, Sarah, Elodie, Erika, Noamie, Jennifer, Armine, Marcella; Gooby, Cassielle, Carol-Ann, Kelsey, Allison, Elona, Saada, Yvette, Gabrielle; Sage, Alyssa, Megan W, Megan M, Brianna, Minjo, Jasmin, Blair, Hadeya; Buzz, Alicia, Katie, Erin, LaKeisha, Brianna, Valynn, Amber, Nykeala; Feather, Drew, Hailey, Chloe, Alexis, Jenna, Jazmen, Tori, Jessica, and Josee. These are my campers from this summer, plus the counsellor that I worked with for that session. Every single one of these girls is simply amazing and they have each had an impact on my life, whether big or small. They all hold a place in my heart and I will always love them, forever.
- Halifax for Canada Day with Buzz, Shiver, Kowabunga, Shine, Oups, Captain, and Tic Tac.
- getting to see my mama in Halifax for a weekend in August.
- meeting and spending three months with some really amazing people who I hope I will be friends with for a very long time.
- being in denial about leaving camp-wasn't so fun for me, but it certainly gave the other counsellors something to laugh about.
- going to my aunt and uncle's cottage for a night, and discovering that fall had hit Ontario very early!
- going to my annual Blue Jays game on Labour Day weekend with my mama, and the Jays winning (of course!)
- coming back to Newfoundland for my third (of many) years at MUN.
- moving out, completely on my own, for the first time and being rather scared.
- MUNCF fall retreat 2010...oh the awkwardness...lol
High: getting a free lunch at church today. It was for young adults and it was yummy!
Low: we don't have cable at our house, so I can't watch either Desperate Housewives or The Amazing Race tonight, I have to wait until it comes online. What a hard life I lead. lol
Thankful: for the very unseasonal, yet amazing weather we've had for the last couple days. It's like summer, again...in October...
Books read this year: 38
love <3
Sunday, September 26, 2010
single ladies club
So I had just a really, really amazing weekend. I went away for the weekend, on a retreat, with the Christian Fellowship at my school. I really couldn't afford to go, both money-wise and time-wise. But my mom lent me some money to go, and school...still sucks, and this week will still kill me, but I don't think it'll be that bad anymore.
I love going on the retreats. I always feel like I get so much closer to God when I'm out there, and I'm not sure why. It might be because I spend two and a half days with a bunch of other Christians and it's hard to not get closer when you're with that many people who have the same beliefs. It might be because, getting out of the city and away from all the distractions just clears my mind and lets me focus on the things that are actually important in my life in the long run, not the short term stuff, like school and Facebook drama, and going downtown and just stupid stuff. As I have been raised Christian my entire life, it's a huge part of who I am and I want to be an equally huge part of who I will be for the rest of my life. I've struggled a lot with God and how I really feel about all of it, mostly in the last 7-10 years. I've gone through a lot of hard stuff, and there was always this voice in my mind, telling me that the God of the Bible would not let me suffer the way I was. I realize now that that is completely false, and all the stuff I went through has made me exactly who I am today.
At the retreat, the focus of the weekend was the book Song of Solomon. For those of you who don't know, this very short book is about Solomon, the king, finding a woman he wants to marry. It details their "dating", the wedding day (and night) and their marriage. It was a good book to study, although most of the people on the retreat were not in relationships, which made discussions very short. But it made me realize something: I'm happy being single. I've been single for a while, and for some reason it always felt like I was missing out. I would talk to my friends who were in relationshops and they were always so happy and things were always going so well and part of me was always jealous, at least a little bit. I would always wonder why I couldn't have that same happiness with someone. Was there something wrong with me? Was I destined to be single forever? These kinds of thoughts actually took up way too much space in my mind. But I realized this weekend that, you know what, I am single right now. But I'm happy! Since this summer, I've been the happiest I think I've ever been. I miss camp with ever fibre of my being, but instead of going into intense withdrawl and getting depressed, I've taken the happiness from the summer and brought it into my real life. I am so genuinely happy now, and I love it. Friends from school, who didn't see me all summer, have commented that I seem like a completely different person than I was back in the spring. And I know that the only real change is that now I'm happy!
High: the whole weekend: mostly bonding with the other people and forming deeper friendships that will last.
Low: I actually don't think I have a low...maybe doing laundry today: it has taken approximately seven hours. Yikes!
Thankful: for the chance to spend the weekend away and grow as a person.
Books read this year: 37
love <3
I love going on the retreats. I always feel like I get so much closer to God when I'm out there, and I'm not sure why. It might be because I spend two and a half days with a bunch of other Christians and it's hard to not get closer when you're with that many people who have the same beliefs. It might be because, getting out of the city and away from all the distractions just clears my mind and lets me focus on the things that are actually important in my life in the long run, not the short term stuff, like school and Facebook drama, and going downtown and just stupid stuff. As I have been raised Christian my entire life, it's a huge part of who I am and I want to be an equally huge part of who I will be for the rest of my life. I've struggled a lot with God and how I really feel about all of it, mostly in the last 7-10 years. I've gone through a lot of hard stuff, and there was always this voice in my mind, telling me that the God of the Bible would not let me suffer the way I was. I realize now that that is completely false, and all the stuff I went through has made me exactly who I am today.
At the retreat, the focus of the weekend was the book Song of Solomon. For those of you who don't know, this very short book is about Solomon, the king, finding a woman he wants to marry. It details their "dating", the wedding day (and night) and their marriage. It was a good book to study, although most of the people on the retreat were not in relationships, which made discussions very short. But it made me realize something: I'm happy being single. I've been single for a while, and for some reason it always felt like I was missing out. I would talk to my friends who were in relationshops and they were always so happy and things were always going so well and part of me was always jealous, at least a little bit. I would always wonder why I couldn't have that same happiness with someone. Was there something wrong with me? Was I destined to be single forever? These kinds of thoughts actually took up way too much space in my mind. But I realized this weekend that, you know what, I am single right now. But I'm happy! Since this summer, I've been the happiest I think I've ever been. I miss camp with ever fibre of my being, but instead of going into intense withdrawl and getting depressed, I've taken the happiness from the summer and brought it into my real life. I am so genuinely happy now, and I love it. Friends from school, who didn't see me all summer, have commented that I seem like a completely different person than I was back in the spring. And I know that the only real change is that now I'm happy!
High: the whole weekend: mostly bonding with the other people and forming deeper friendships that will last.
Low: I actually don't think I have a low...maybe doing laundry today: it has taken approximately seven hours. Yikes!
Thankful: for the chance to spend the weekend away and grow as a person.
Books read this year: 37
love <3
Thursday, September 16, 2010
61!
So, I don't know if anyone was paying attention, but if you were, you might have noticed that I just posted three blogs within an hour. I wish I could say it was because I'm just the most amazing blogger ever, and I can just sit at my desk and these amazing thoughts just flow from the tips of my fingers and onto the keyboard. Yea, I wish. Actually, what happened was that we didn't have Internet at our house until today, so even though I've been able to use the computers at school to go on the Internet and check my email and stuff, I didn't really want to use up the little time I had to blog. Plus, when I feel like I have to blog, without any ideas about what I want to write about, things usually end poorly. So I was typing up my blogs in Word on my laptop when I was at home, and then copy and pasted all of them today and posted them. So that is why my archive will say I posted four times today.
So tomorrow is Friday. Tomorrow is actually my dad's birthday! I have to make sure not to forget about that. He's turning 61. 61!!! Can you believe that?! Well, you actually probably can, as I'm fairly certain that no one who reads this blog has ever actually met my father. He was 40 when I was born, and as I'm turning 21 (in 4 months exactly! wow!), it makes sense that he's 61. Yea, my parents were both pretty old when they had me. They had both been married to other people before they married each other, so I guess that explains it.
I have no idea why I was just talking about my parents' love lives. Anyway...
High: that we got Internet!!!!! And that it was actually sunny, and warm, for the whole day today!
Low: I don't think I have a low today...
Thankful: for the Internet. (that was super lame, I'm sorry. I'll think of something really amazing for next time)
Books read this year: 37
love <3
So tomorrow is Friday. Tomorrow is actually my dad's birthday! I have to make sure not to forget about that. He's turning 61. 61!!! Can you believe that?! Well, you actually probably can, as I'm fairly certain that no one who reads this blog has ever actually met my father. He was 40 when I was born, and as I'm turning 21 (in 4 months exactly! wow!), it makes sense that he's 61. Yea, my parents were both pretty old when they had me. They had both been married to other people before they married each other, so I guess that explains it.
I have no idea why I was just talking about my parents' love lives. Anyway...
High: that we got Internet!!!!! And that it was actually sunny, and warm, for the whole day today!
Low: I don't think I have a low today...
Thankful: for the Internet. (that was super lame, I'm sorry. I'll think of something really amazing for next time)
Books read this year: 37
love <3
internet!
[Note: This was written on Wednesday, September 15]
Today is our last day without Internet! This time tomorrow we will have Internet in our house!! I can’t wait to not have to go to the library just to check my email and stuff. I mean, I know it’s not the end of the world, not having Internet at home. But it really is such a huge convenience to be able to go on the Internet whenever I want.
So other than the ridiculously exciting news that we’re finally going to get Internet, not much else is new. I’ve now been living in this house for over a week, and I’m having a pretty good time. Even though I was really unsure about living in res again or moving off campus, I’m really happy with my decision. When I went to visit res on the weekend, I realized that I could not see myself living there again, for a third year. I mean, I had two really great years there, but it was time to move out. Plus, I’m really happy with my house and the girls I live with. Right choice: Seana.
High: I saw actual blue sky today. Blue sky! And it was there for…five minutes!
Low: that for, like, the seventh day in a row, it rained today.
Thankful: that, not only am I starting assignments weeks before they're due, I actually know how to do them!
Books read this year: 37
love <3
Today is our last day without Internet! This time tomorrow we will have Internet in our house!! I can’t wait to not have to go to the library just to check my email and stuff. I mean, I know it’s not the end of the world, not having Internet at home. But it really is such a huge convenience to be able to go on the Internet whenever I want.
So other than the ridiculously exciting news that we’re finally going to get Internet, not much else is new. I’ve now been living in this house for over a week, and I’m having a pretty good time. Even though I was really unsure about living in res again or moving off campus, I’m really happy with my decision. When I went to visit res on the weekend, I realized that I could not see myself living there again, for a third year. I mean, I had two really great years there, but it was time to move out. Plus, I’m really happy with my house and the girls I live with. Right choice: Seana.
High: I saw actual blue sky today. Blue sky! And it was there for…five minutes!
Low: that for, like, the seventh day in a row, it rained today.
Thankful: that, not only am I starting assignments weeks before they're due, I actually know how to do them!
Books read this year: 37
love <3
New Year's Resolution--Update!
[Note: This was written on Sunday, September 12]
As some of you may know, one of my New Year’s resolutions this year was to read 50 books before the end of the year. I am currently in the middle of number 37, but I thought you guys might like to know what books I’ve read so far.
16. The Second Summer of the Sisterhood
17. Girls in Pants
18. Forever in Blue
19. Crow Lake
20. Teen Idol
21. Looking for Alaska
22. Sloppy Firsts
23. Second Helpings
24. Charmed Thirds
25. Fourth Comings
26. Being Nikki
27. Runaway
28. Angels Watching Over Me
29. Lifted Up by Angels
30. Until Angels Close My Eyes
31. All-American Girl
32. Gossip Girl
33. You Know You Love Me*
34. All I Want is Everything*
35. Because I’m Worth It*
36. I Like It Like That*
37. It Had To Be You*
So those are the books that I’ve read so far this year. I still have 13 books left to read, which I don’t think will be a problem at all. I still want to reread all four Twilight books, which I haven’t read in two years. I also want to read The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo by Stieg Larsson. One of my good friends this summer was reading it and she told me I should read it. It also has a sequel, I’m not sure what it’s called, but I want to read it as well.
High: I got to talk to my mom today for the first time since I left. We had a lovely hour-long conversation.
Low: that I didn’t even leave the house because, guess what, it’s still raining. I hope it stops tomorrow!
Thankful: that the five of us who live here get along so well together.
Books read this year: 37
love <3
*These are all books in the Gossip Girl series.
As some of you may know, one of my New Year’s resolutions this year was to read 50 books before the end of the year. I am currently in the middle of number 37, but I thought you guys might like to know what books I’ve read so far.
16. The Second Summer of the Sisterhood
17. Girls in Pants
18. Forever in Blue
19. Crow Lake
20. Teen Idol
21. Looking for Alaska
22. Sloppy Firsts
23. Second Helpings
24. Charmed Thirds
25. Fourth Comings
26. Being Nikki
27. Runaway
28. Angels Watching Over Me
29. Lifted Up by Angels
30. Until Angels Close My Eyes
31. All-American Girl
32. Gossip Girl
33. You Know You Love Me*
34. All I Want is Everything*
35. Because I’m Worth It*
36. I Like It Like That*
37. It Had To Be You*
So those are the books that I’ve read so far this year. I still have 13 books left to read, which I don’t think will be a problem at all. I still want to reread all four Twilight books, which I haven’t read in two years. I also want to read The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo by Stieg Larsson. One of my good friends this summer was reading it and she told me I should read it. It also has a sequel, I’m not sure what it’s called, but I want to read it as well.
High: I got to talk to my mom today for the first time since I left. We had a lovely hour-long conversation.
Low: that I didn’t even leave the house because, guess what, it’s still raining. I hope it stops tomorrow!
Thankful: that the five of us who live here get along so well together.
Books read this year: 37
love <3
*These are all books in the Gossip Girl series.
soulmates
[Note: This was written on Saturday, September 11.]
The first week of school is done. How did that happen?! It feels like just yesterday that classes had ended for the year, last year, and the summer was getting started. Now, it’s September and school has started again and somehow I’m in my third year. I really don’t know how that happened! Well, now I’m just being sentimental. I don’t like when things happen too quickly.
So, this is completely out of nowhere, but I’m listening to music right now and the song You Belong with Me by Taylor Swift just came on, and it got me thinking: do you think that, somewhere in the world, there’s someone who “belongs” with you? Like, someone you’re destined to be with forever? I guess I’m asking if you believe in soul mates or not. I do. I fully believe that, somewhere in the world, there is a man that I am destined to spend the rest of my life with, and I believe that every single person in the world is destined to be with someone. But I also believe that sometimes, people don’t find the person their destined to be with. I believe that sometimes, for whatever reason, you don’t find your soul mate. I’m actually really scared that’ll happen to me. I don’t know why, I have no reason to believe that I won’t find him. I guess, after seeing my parents split up, even though it went well for both of them and they still get along surprisingly well, I just really don’t want to get divorced. But if I find my soul mate, we obviously won’t get divorced. But I guess no one ever wants to get divorced. Anyway, let me know, in the comments, if you believe in soul mates or not.
I don’t really have that much else to write about. The first week of classes was OK, nothing too exciting. I finally finished unpacking all the stuff I have and am now almost done decorating my new room. It looks pretty good so far, if I do say so myself. My roommates are really nice too. There are five of us living in the house, so four other girls. I didn’t rent the house with any of them, I just got my room. But I already knew three of the other girls and I’m getting to know the fourth. I feel weirdly awkward around them and I’m not sure why. I feel like I have nothing to say to any of them, which is really weird. I mean, I love to talk, I do it all the time. And yet…I don’t know, maybe I’m just really bad at small talk. I’m not very good at thinking of things to talk about. I don’t know. I really like the other girls; I’m just the weird, awkward one. Sounds right.
High: this hasn’t happened yet, but tonight I’m going to the movies with a couple friends and one of them I haven’t seen since the spring, so getting to see her!
Low: that it is still raining. Still! And, of course, genius over here left her raincoat at home. Big surprise.
Thankful: that I know my way around the kitchen and have been able to make actually good food. I seriously hope this lasts!
Books read this year: 36
love <3
The first week of school is done. How did that happen?! It feels like just yesterday that classes had ended for the year, last year, and the summer was getting started. Now, it’s September and school has started again and somehow I’m in my third year. I really don’t know how that happened! Well, now I’m just being sentimental. I don’t like when things happen too quickly.
So, this is completely out of nowhere, but I’m listening to music right now and the song You Belong with Me by Taylor Swift just came on, and it got me thinking: do you think that, somewhere in the world, there’s someone who “belongs” with you? Like, someone you’re destined to be with forever? I guess I’m asking if you believe in soul mates or not. I do. I fully believe that, somewhere in the world, there is a man that I am destined to spend the rest of my life with, and I believe that every single person in the world is destined to be with someone. But I also believe that sometimes, people don’t find the person their destined to be with. I believe that sometimes, for whatever reason, you don’t find your soul mate. I’m actually really scared that’ll happen to me. I don’t know why, I have no reason to believe that I won’t find him. I guess, after seeing my parents split up, even though it went well for both of them and they still get along surprisingly well, I just really don’t want to get divorced. But if I find my soul mate, we obviously won’t get divorced. But I guess no one ever wants to get divorced. Anyway, let me know, in the comments, if you believe in soul mates or not.
I don’t really have that much else to write about. The first week of classes was OK, nothing too exciting. I finally finished unpacking all the stuff I have and am now almost done decorating my new room. It looks pretty good so far, if I do say so myself. My roommates are really nice too. There are five of us living in the house, so four other girls. I didn’t rent the house with any of them, I just got my room. But I already knew three of the other girls and I’m getting to know the fourth. I feel weirdly awkward around them and I’m not sure why. I feel like I have nothing to say to any of them, which is really weird. I mean, I love to talk, I do it all the time. And yet…I don’t know, maybe I’m just really bad at small talk. I’m not very good at thinking of things to talk about. I don’t know. I really like the other girls; I’m just the weird, awkward one. Sounds right.
High: this hasn’t happened yet, but tonight I’m going to the movies with a couple friends and one of them I haven’t seen since the spring, so getting to see her!
Low: that it is still raining. Still! And, of course, genius over here left her raincoat at home. Big surprise.
Thankful: that I know my way around the kitchen and have been able to make actually good food. I seriously hope this lasts!
Books read this year: 36
love <3
Wednesday, September 8, 2010
first day!
I so do not have a lot of time to be posting this, so I apologize in advance! I just moved into my new house yesterday, but we don't have Internet yet, so even though I wanted to write something yesterday (instead of unpacking!) I could not. I was very sad.
I have a question: how do I have so much stuff? It's a rhetorical question, but really. I'm just starting my third year at MUN, but you would think I'd been living here for at least ten years, with all the stuff I have! I tried to unpack yesterday, I really did. It did not go well. Kay, but I need to pick up some shelves this weekend. So there's no point unpacking the stuff that's going to go on the shelves, just to move it again. Probably could have unpacked my clothes, though...Oops... :)
High: moving into my new house, and seeing some of my Newfie friends again!
Low: school.
Thankful: that I made it to Newfoundland safely, and that I have a place to live!
Books read this year: 36
love <3
I have a question: how do I have so much stuff? It's a rhetorical question, but really. I'm just starting my third year at MUN, but you would think I'd been living here for at least ten years, with all the stuff I have! I tried to unpack yesterday, I really did. It did not go well. Kay, but I need to pick up some shelves this weekend. So there's no point unpacking the stuff that's going to go on the shelves, just to move it again. Probably could have unpacked my clothes, though...Oops... :)
High: moving into my new house, and seeing some of my Newfie friends again!
Low: school.
Thankful: that I made it to Newfoundland safely, and that I have a place to live!
Books read this year: 36
love <3
Thursday, August 26, 2010
the best summer of my life
The last few days have been really tough. As I mentioned in my last post, we have very few days left at camp. The kids leave the day after tomorrow, and I fly home in four days. I've been here for over three months and that completely baffles me. Pretty much every day, all I've been able to think about is how everything is ending and this is the last time we'll do this and this is the last time we'll do that. So pretty much everything is making me cry, just because I'm so upset about leaving. On top of that, I've got all this stuff going on in my personal life, that I was talking about a couple posts ago. My life is just a huge mess right now.
It's later now and I just reread the last sentence of that paragraph. Holy drama queen. My life is not a huge mess, by any means. I am, for the first time in a long time, completely, genuinely happy. I have met amazing people this summer who I will remember for the rest of my life, without a doubt. Yes, I am extremely sad that I have to leave this place, but my life in the real world is not that bad, it's just really different. The way I act at camp is very loud and outgoing and I never really stop, which is perfect, and the people at camp like me, for the most part. But in the real world, when I try to act like that, people don't like me. They don't understand me, and I never really fit in. So I tone myself down and try to make myself more normal, and people like me. Except it isn't me. It's not me at all. It's a pale imitation, a version of me. And, I mean, I do have some friends in the real world who know the real me and love me that way. But a lot of people see it as immature and attention seeking and just don't like me. And I really hate that. I really, really do.
So does it make more sense now, why I so desperately don't want to go home? I feel like I'm going to go into withdrawal for the first couple of weeks and after that, I have the potential to get really depressed. I so don't want that to happen, but camp, especially this camp with these people, has made me the happiest I have ever been in my whole life. I don't want to go back to being unhappy, even though I'm quite sure that that's what's going to happen. And I don't even have the option to see most of the people I worked with, because we're all from so far around the country. There's one other counsellor who lives in Newfoundland and that's it. This is going to suck, big time.
High: getting to go on the pontoon swim three times today.
Low: that today was the last real day of camp this summer.
Thankful: for getting to spend the best three months of my life with some truly amazing people.
Books read this year: 35
love <3
It's later now and I just reread the last sentence of that paragraph. Holy drama queen. My life is not a huge mess, by any means. I am, for the first time in a long time, completely, genuinely happy. I have met amazing people this summer who I will remember for the rest of my life, without a doubt. Yes, I am extremely sad that I have to leave this place, but my life in the real world is not that bad, it's just really different. The way I act at camp is very loud and outgoing and I never really stop, which is perfect, and the people at camp like me, for the most part. But in the real world, when I try to act like that, people don't like me. They don't understand me, and I never really fit in. So I tone myself down and try to make myself more normal, and people like me. Except it isn't me. It's not me at all. It's a pale imitation, a version of me. And, I mean, I do have some friends in the real world who know the real me and love me that way. But a lot of people see it as immature and attention seeking and just don't like me. And I really hate that. I really, really do.
So does it make more sense now, why I so desperately don't want to go home? I feel like I'm going to go into withdrawal for the first couple of weeks and after that, I have the potential to get really depressed. I so don't want that to happen, but camp, especially this camp with these people, has made me the happiest I have ever been in my whole life. I don't want to go back to being unhappy, even though I'm quite sure that that's what's going to happen. And I don't even have the option to see most of the people I worked with, because we're all from so far around the country. There's one other counsellor who lives in Newfoundland and that's it. This is going to suck, big time.
High: getting to go on the pontoon swim three times today.
Low: that today was the last real day of camp this summer.
Thankful: for getting to spend the best three months of my life with some truly amazing people.
Books read this year: 35
love <3
Monday, August 23, 2010
don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened
Gah, why do people have to leave?! In exactly one week I will have been home for, like, twelve hours. I can't process this. I have decided that I will be here for another 4000 million zillion days. I don't know how many years that is, but I think I can safely assume that it's pretty much the rest of my life.
I'm not really sure why I don't want to leave. I mean, I get to be home for a week and see lots of friends and family, which will be great. And then I get to go back to Newfoundland, where I get to see lots of my friends again, for the first time in four months. I miss them all dearly, and I'm really excited to see them. I'm just not very excited about starting school again. I mean, I love learning, and...well, I really want to be done school. But my life at camp is just so much better than my life in the real world, for the most part. I don't really know how to explain it, I just know that I don't want to leave. For the next eight months, all I'm going to be doing is waiting and wishing for camp again. This is where I belong.
High: getting to go to the most gorgeous beach on a really amazing day for the last time this summer.
Low: realizing how little time we have left at camp, and that everything really is ending.
Thankful: that I got to have this experience and this amazing summer and that I got to share it with really amazing people who I will hopefully be friends with for a very long time.
Books read this year: 34
love <3
I'm not really sure why I don't want to leave. I mean, I get to be home for a week and see lots of friends and family, which will be great. And then I get to go back to Newfoundland, where I get to see lots of my friends again, for the first time in four months. I miss them all dearly, and I'm really excited to see them. I'm just not very excited about starting school again. I mean, I love learning, and...well, I really want to be done school. But my life at camp is just so much better than my life in the real world, for the most part. I don't really know how to explain it, I just know that I don't want to leave. For the next eight months, all I'm going to be doing is waiting and wishing for camp again. This is where I belong.
High: getting to go to the most gorgeous beach on a really amazing day for the last time this summer.
Low: realizing how little time we have left at camp, and that everything really is ending.
Thankful: that I got to have this experience and this amazing summer and that I got to share it with really amazing people who I will hopefully be friends with for a very long time.
Books read this year: 34
love <3
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
highs and lows of long distance?
I have a question: what goes through boys' minds? I'm dead serious. How do they think? Why do they think the way they do? How do they make such huge decisions they way they do? I'm sure they could ask the same thing about girls, but I know how I think so I don't really care how other girls think.
Today was supposed to be such a good day. Sleeping in, swimming, tanning, going for a run, relaxing, reading magazines, hanging out with the other counsellors, that sort of thing. And that's exactly what the morning was. And then three of my best friends left for escort, to pick kids up tomorrow and bring them to camp. And then I checked my email and I had a message from one of my best guy friends, saying he needed to talk to me, so call him as soon as I can.
Him and I were best friends in high school, and it was never romantic. He dated two of my close girl friends and my ex-boyfriend was a good friend of his. I never thought of him that way at all. Then after high school, when I moved halfway across the country, we kind of lost touch. It happened with almost all my friends from high school. I was only home at Christmas, so how was I supposed to really stay close with them?! During my first semester of university, him and I tried so hard to stay in touch, but it didn't work out at all. We all had our new friends and we couldn't visit each other...you get the idea. Anyway, this past Christmas break, him and I ran into each other at the grocery store. We ended up going out for coffee and it was so great to talk to him again. After I went back out east for winter semester, we kept talking. And we talked, and talked, and talked. By mid-March, I was seriously falling for him. It was bad. Then he told me that he was falling for me too, but didn't want to have a long distance relationship, which I can sort of understand. Long distance isn't ideal, but sometimes it happens. But I was going to be home a month later for the whole summer! We could start there and then see what happens at the end of the summer! Sounded like a good plan...until I found out a week later that I was going to be working in Nova Scotia, which is nowhere near home, for three months. Close, but no cigar. Well, for him, anyway. I still wanted something to happen, especially because I was going to be home for a month before I left for camp. We hung out almost every day I was home, but we still weren't in a relationship because he was absolutely set against long distance. And being in a long distance relationship while at camp is really difficult, but it can work. The entire time I was here, most days I was getting texts from him, saying how much he missed me and stuff like that. WTF?! Then one day, about a month ago, he called me and told me that he missed me so much and that he thought he was falling in love with me. Are you serious? You can't tell me that you don't want to be with me because you don't want to do long distance and then spend the entire time we're apart saying how much you miss me and then telling me you're falling in love with me. That's not fair to either of us. After he told me that, I told him that he needed to figure out whether he wanted a relationship or not and to stop talking to me until he figured it out because it really wasn't fair to me.
Today he called me to talk. He told me that, even though he really likes me and thinks he's falling in love with me, he can't have a long distance relationship. He said this was one of the hardest decisions he's ever made and he doesn't want to hurt me, but he doesn't feel mature enough to be in a long distance relationship. I don't know how I feel about this. Obviously I'm hurt, especially because this is the first guy I've had real feelings for since me and my ex-boyfriend broke up two and a half years ago. Plus, I really liked him. We got along so well and would have been perfect for each other. I'm having a very difficult time accepting that we're never going to happen. I'm in denial. Story of my life.
High: watching movies with friends, but not really watching them and just talking lots and lots.
Low: if you don't know what my low is, you clearly didn't read my blog very carefully!
Thankful: that I have some really amazing people who I know will comfort me no matter what!
Books read this year: 34
love <3
Today was supposed to be such a good day. Sleeping in, swimming, tanning, going for a run, relaxing, reading magazines, hanging out with the other counsellors, that sort of thing. And that's exactly what the morning was. And then three of my best friends left for escort, to pick kids up tomorrow and bring them to camp. And then I checked my email and I had a message from one of my best guy friends, saying he needed to talk to me, so call him as soon as I can.
Him and I were best friends in high school, and it was never romantic. He dated two of my close girl friends and my ex-boyfriend was a good friend of his. I never thought of him that way at all. Then after high school, when I moved halfway across the country, we kind of lost touch. It happened with almost all my friends from high school. I was only home at Christmas, so how was I supposed to really stay close with them?! During my first semester of university, him and I tried so hard to stay in touch, but it didn't work out at all. We all had our new friends and we couldn't visit each other...you get the idea. Anyway, this past Christmas break, him and I ran into each other at the grocery store. We ended up going out for coffee and it was so great to talk to him again. After I went back out east for winter semester, we kept talking. And we talked, and talked, and talked. By mid-March, I was seriously falling for him. It was bad. Then he told me that he was falling for me too, but didn't want to have a long distance relationship, which I can sort of understand. Long distance isn't ideal, but sometimes it happens. But I was going to be home a month later for the whole summer! We could start there and then see what happens at the end of the summer! Sounded like a good plan...until I found out a week later that I was going to be working in Nova Scotia, which is nowhere near home, for three months. Close, but no cigar. Well, for him, anyway. I still wanted something to happen, especially because I was going to be home for a month before I left for camp. We hung out almost every day I was home, but we still weren't in a relationship because he was absolutely set against long distance. And being in a long distance relationship while at camp is really difficult, but it can work. The entire time I was here, most days I was getting texts from him, saying how much he missed me and stuff like that. WTF?! Then one day, about a month ago, he called me and told me that he missed me so much and that he thought he was falling in love with me. Are you serious? You can't tell me that you don't want to be with me because you don't want to do long distance and then spend the entire time we're apart saying how much you miss me and then telling me you're falling in love with me. That's not fair to either of us. After he told me that, I told him that he needed to figure out whether he wanted a relationship or not and to stop talking to me until he figured it out because it really wasn't fair to me.
Today he called me to talk. He told me that, even though he really likes me and thinks he's falling in love with me, he can't have a long distance relationship. He said this was one of the hardest decisions he's ever made and he doesn't want to hurt me, but he doesn't feel mature enough to be in a long distance relationship. I don't know how I feel about this. Obviously I'm hurt, especially because this is the first guy I've had real feelings for since me and my ex-boyfriend broke up two and a half years ago. Plus, I really liked him. We got along so well and would have been perfect for each other. I'm having a very difficult time accepting that we're never going to happen. I'm in denial. Story of my life.
High: watching movies with friends, but not really watching them and just talking lots and lots.
Low: if you don't know what my low is, you clearly didn't read my blog very carefully!
Thankful: that I have some really amazing people who I know will comfort me no matter what!
Books read this year: 34
love <3
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
chocolate milk!
A few minutes ago, I had my first glass of chocolate milk since I was home May. It was so beyond excellent. I usually drink several glasses of chocolate milk every day, and I've gone over two and a half months without any! I'm not sure how I survived! lol
Today was a great day! I'm on break, so I got to sleep in, but I ended up waking up at 9 this morning to say goodbye to one of the counsellors who left early. I am so in denial about camp ending. Two counsellors have left in the past two days, and I refuse to believe that camp is really almost over. In thirteen days I'll be home, but I refuse to accept that. It's actually pathetic!
After Shiver left, I hung out for a bit, did some computer stuff, watched some TV, just hung out. Then a few of us went swimming, but the tide was really low, so it was super shallow! It was pretty fun though. Then we had a really delicious lunch (tuna sandwiches!) and did some more hanging out. Then a few of us went outside and played a game called BananaGrams, which is kind of like Scrabble but different. It's fun but I'm not very good at it. But it was still really fun. We just hung out outside, talking and having fun. After that, a bunch of people left for a town about 45 minutes away to go see a movie and the rest of us biked to the nearest town to get some food for supper, because camp food epically sucks. It took about 15 or 20 minutes to bike there. It was so much fun! There were five of us that went. When we got back we all went for a swim because we were all so sweaty and gross. The tide was really high this time, so we got a jump off the dock and stuff. Then we went and showered and then ate some of the food we had bought. It tasted so good after such an extensive night with no food. Now I'm watching Degrassi and doing this. After this I'm going to read and then go to bed. I'm super lame, I know!
High: spending the whole day relaxing and having fun with people I love.
Low: mosquitos! And realizing that, in 13 very short days, I'll be home and won't see some of these people ever again.
Thankful: that I have the time off to relax!
Books read this year: 34
love <3
P.S. Since my last blog, I have been using livestrong.com religiously to track what I eat and how much exercise I do. I feel amazing! I have sooo much more energy, it's crazy! I'm very happy! I just hope all of this lasts past camp!
Today was a great day! I'm on break, so I got to sleep in, but I ended up waking up at 9 this morning to say goodbye to one of the counsellors who left early. I am so in denial about camp ending. Two counsellors have left in the past two days, and I refuse to believe that camp is really almost over. In thirteen days I'll be home, but I refuse to accept that. It's actually pathetic!
After Shiver left, I hung out for a bit, did some computer stuff, watched some TV, just hung out. Then a few of us went swimming, but the tide was really low, so it was super shallow! It was pretty fun though. Then we had a really delicious lunch (tuna sandwiches!) and did some more hanging out. Then a few of us went outside and played a game called BananaGrams, which is kind of like Scrabble but different. It's fun but I'm not very good at it. But it was still really fun. We just hung out outside, talking and having fun. After that, a bunch of people left for a town about 45 minutes away to go see a movie and the rest of us biked to the nearest town to get some food for supper, because camp food epically sucks. It took about 15 or 20 minutes to bike there. It was so much fun! There were five of us that went. When we got back we all went for a swim because we were all so sweaty and gross. The tide was really high this time, so we got a jump off the dock and stuff. Then we went and showered and then ate some of the food we had bought. It tasted so good after such an extensive night with no food. Now I'm watching Degrassi and doing this. After this I'm going to read and then go to bed. I'm super lame, I know!
High: spending the whole day relaxing and having fun with people I love.
Low: mosquitos! And realizing that, in 13 very short days, I'll be home and won't see some of these people ever again.
Thankful: that I have the time off to relax!
Books read this year: 34
love <3
P.S. Since my last blog, I have been using livestrong.com religiously to track what I eat and how much exercise I do. I feel amazing! I have sooo much more energy, it's crazy! I'm very happy! I just hope all of this lasts past camp!
Saturday, August 14, 2010
tough stuff
I need to talk about something. This won't be easy for me to talk about, and it probably won't have much consistency between paragraphs, or even between sentences, because I will just be saying things as they come into my head, not trying to make sense. Already I'm not making sense. But go with it!
Pretty much my whole life, I've always been the "chubby" girl. Both my parents have, or had, weight issues and it's something I come by naturally. I also have a ridiculous sweet tooth and it's nearly impossible for me to say no to chocolate or candy, which really doesn't help at all. As I got older and older, the weight kept adding up. I'm very muscular, so even if I was a healthy weight I'd still weigh more than someone my height is necessarily supposed to. But either way, the truth was, in high school, I was fat. And then I started university.
I've been a vegetarian since I was 13, and in high school, living with my mom, who is also a vegetarian, and a health freak, the food she was giving me was always healthy; I never had to worry. But once I got to university, and had to eat at the campus dining hall, and got to pick my own foods, things got a little out of hand. First of all, it was not vegetarian friendly at all. Sure, it was easy to just not eat the meat, but there was nothing to replace it with. Occasionally there was tofu, but it was usually pretty sketchy, and there was rarely any other kind of replacement. Plus, it was set up like an all-you-can-eat buffet, so I could literally just keep eating. This created a huge problem. In my first year, I gained a good 20 pounds to my already overweight body. Then I went home for the summer, ate my mom's food, did a lot of exercise and was as conscious as I could be about what I was eating. This helped, but not enough. Then September rolled around and I was back living in residence and back to eating at the dining hall. I was significantly more conscious of not only what I was eating but how much I was eating, but still. The food hadn't gotten any better, so there was only so much I could do. I would have to say I gained nearly 20 more pounds in my second year. It was beyond ridiculous.
It was around this time that I realized I seriously needed to make a change: this couldn't keep happening. I went home for a month and was very strict with my self about what I was eating (only my mom's food, as much as possible) and how much exercise I was getting (as much as possible). It helped a little bit, but there's only so much that can be done in a month. Then I left for camp, where I've been since the end of May. In the last month or so, I've completely decided that this needs to end now. So I've been watching how much I eat, what I'm eating, learning to recognize when my body is telling me I'm full and then stopping! I've also been doing more exercise, although at camp, pretty much all we do all day is walk, so I'm definitely not at a shortage of exercise.
Last week I saw my mom for the first time since I left at the end of May, and she told me that she thinks I've lost weight, and my mom is my toughest critic. I don't actually know if I've lost weight, because I don't weigh myself. But I do know that I have more energy, and my clothes feel looser. Almost none of my shorts/pants even fit me anymore, they're all too big! I think this is a good sign. I've also started doing a workout routine from a magazine, and some of the other counsellors and I have decided to do yoga together every morning while our campers are waking up and getting ready. And thanks to the success story of one of my favourtie bloggers, I have signed up for livestrong.com and will be using it to track my progress. And my friend is giving me her P90X videos, and I'm going to start doing them when school starts in September. Plus I'm living in a house off campus this year and will be making all my own meals, so I can eat what I want to eat and be healthy. I feel like this is a beginning of something amazing.
Maybe telling you all this before it's even really started is like jinxing it, I don't know. But I do know that I'm the type of person where the more people who know about my goals and what I'm trying to achieve, the more likely I am to stick with it, because if I don't, everyone will know that I failed. So please, in the comments, for the next few months, every once in a while, ask me how I'm doing and keep me in check. I will let you know when I've reached my goal, and maybe even give some before and after pictures.
High: witnessing the campers write the thank-you letters to the Tim Hortons store owners who sponsored them to be here: I had no idea kids could have so much genuine emotion and happiness in them.
Low: that camp food is really starting to suck, and that I actually ate three pieces of food for breakfast. I need real food!
Thankful: that I have amazing people in my life who I know will support me in everything I do.
Books read so far this year: 34
love <3
Pretty much my whole life, I've always been the "chubby" girl. Both my parents have, or had, weight issues and it's something I come by naturally. I also have a ridiculous sweet tooth and it's nearly impossible for me to say no to chocolate or candy, which really doesn't help at all. As I got older and older, the weight kept adding up. I'm very muscular, so even if I was a healthy weight I'd still weigh more than someone my height is necessarily supposed to. But either way, the truth was, in high school, I was fat. And then I started university.
I've been a vegetarian since I was 13, and in high school, living with my mom, who is also a vegetarian, and a health freak, the food she was giving me was always healthy; I never had to worry. But once I got to university, and had to eat at the campus dining hall, and got to pick my own foods, things got a little out of hand. First of all, it was not vegetarian friendly at all. Sure, it was easy to just not eat the meat, but there was nothing to replace it with. Occasionally there was tofu, but it was usually pretty sketchy, and there was rarely any other kind of replacement. Plus, it was set up like an all-you-can-eat buffet, so I could literally just keep eating. This created a huge problem. In my first year, I gained a good 20 pounds to my already overweight body. Then I went home for the summer, ate my mom's food, did a lot of exercise and was as conscious as I could be about what I was eating. This helped, but not enough. Then September rolled around and I was back living in residence and back to eating at the dining hall. I was significantly more conscious of not only what I was eating but how much I was eating, but still. The food hadn't gotten any better, so there was only so much I could do. I would have to say I gained nearly 20 more pounds in my second year. It was beyond ridiculous.
It was around this time that I realized I seriously needed to make a change: this couldn't keep happening. I went home for a month and was very strict with my self about what I was eating (only my mom's food, as much as possible) and how much exercise I was getting (as much as possible). It helped a little bit, but there's only so much that can be done in a month. Then I left for camp, where I've been since the end of May. In the last month or so, I've completely decided that this needs to end now. So I've been watching how much I eat, what I'm eating, learning to recognize when my body is telling me I'm full and then stopping! I've also been doing more exercise, although at camp, pretty much all we do all day is walk, so I'm definitely not at a shortage of exercise.
Last week I saw my mom for the first time since I left at the end of May, and she told me that she thinks I've lost weight, and my mom is my toughest critic. I don't actually know if I've lost weight, because I don't weigh myself. But I do know that I have more energy, and my clothes feel looser. Almost none of my shorts/pants even fit me anymore, they're all too big! I think this is a good sign. I've also started doing a workout routine from a magazine, and some of the other counsellors and I have decided to do yoga together every morning while our campers are waking up and getting ready. And thanks to the success story of one of my favourtie bloggers, I have signed up for livestrong.com and will be using it to track my progress. And my friend is giving me her P90X videos, and I'm going to start doing them when school starts in September. Plus I'm living in a house off campus this year and will be making all my own meals, so I can eat what I want to eat and be healthy. I feel like this is a beginning of something amazing.
Maybe telling you all this before it's even really started is like jinxing it, I don't know. But I do know that I'm the type of person where the more people who know about my goals and what I'm trying to achieve, the more likely I am to stick with it, because if I don't, everyone will know that I failed. So please, in the comments, for the next few months, every once in a while, ask me how I'm doing and keep me in check. I will let you know when I've reached my goal, and maybe even give some before and after pictures.
High: witnessing the campers write the thank-you letters to the Tim Hortons store owners who sponsored them to be here: I had no idea kids could have so much genuine emotion and happiness in them.
Low: that camp food is really starting to suck, and that I actually ate three pieces of food for breakfast. I need real food!
Thankful: that I have amazing people in my life who I know will support me in everything I do.
Books read so far this year: 34
love <3
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
really...really happy :)
I miss blogging. Although I love my job (almost) more than I love chocolate, I dislike the severe lack of time off I have each day in which to blog. So many of the blogs I follow are doing Blog Every Day August, and I am so genuinely happy right now that I would love to be able to talk about all of my days with the cyberworld. Boo. But I am going to try and write as often as I can this month. We're only a third of the way in. I've got time to catch up!
Unfortunately, I don't have much time tonight to really start my in-depth August blogging. But I would like to introduce something that I'm going to start doing at the end of each blog. Every night with the campers, we do a debrief, where we talk about the day and stuff. There are several different activities we do, but one of my favourites is High, Low, and Thankful. It's pretty self-explanatory: your favourite part of the day, your least favourite, and something you're thankful for.* So here goes:
High: that I finally got to spend an entire day being co-counsellors with Buzz, after waiting two months for the opportunity to work together.
Low: that I still feel kind of sick, and that it was way too windy and cold to have a lot of fun at the beach.
Thankful: that the worst thing in my life at the moment is a sore throat.
Books read this year: 34 (I think...yikes!)
love <3
*I encourage you, in the comments, to tell me what your high, low and thankful for the day is!!
Unfortunately, I don't have much time tonight to really start my in-depth August blogging. But I would like to introduce something that I'm going to start doing at the end of each blog. Every night with the campers, we do a debrief, where we talk about the day and stuff. There are several different activities we do, but one of my favourites is High, Low, and Thankful. It's pretty self-explanatory: your favourite part of the day, your least favourite, and something you're thankful for.* So here goes:
High: that I finally got to spend an entire day being co-counsellors with Buzz, after waiting two months for the opportunity to work together.
Low: that I still feel kind of sick, and that it was way too windy and cold to have a lot of fun at the beach.
Thankful: that the worst thing in my life at the moment is a sore throat.
Books read this year: 34 (I think...yikes!)
love <3
*I encourage you, in the comments, to tell me what your high, low and thankful for the day is!!
Friday, July 30, 2010
August (almost)?! Already?!
Hey friends. Sorry I've been MIA for a while. I have a pretty intense job where I don't get much time off, and the time I do get off, I use to sleep. Don't get me wrong, I absolutely love my job, but it's not a nine-to-five type of deal. It's a 24/7 for ten days type of deal.
So what's new in my world? Well, today is day five of session five. We only have two more sessions left. How is that possible?! It completely blows my mind how quickly the summer is going. I've been here for almost 70 days! It feels like I just got here a couple weeks ago! Part of me is kind of happy about how fast some things are going, but a bigger part of me so doesn't want the summer to end! I absolutely love the other people I work with and I seriously can't imagine leaving and not seeing some of them ever again! I don't want that to happen!!
So this session I have an english cabin again! I've been with french the last two sessions, and it was great, my french got so much better. But it's so much more convenient to have english kids. When I had a french cabin, when I wanted to say something, I had to figure it out and then translate it in my mind before I could say it. Now when I want to say something, I can just say it! Imagine that! haha
Books read this year: 32
love <3
P.S. My co-counsellors so far this summer have been Shine, Whisper, Oups!, Gooby, and now Sage. I'm really happy the way things have worked out for me so far. Some people have been better to work with than others, but I have had a really great summer and I honestly can't complain! :)
P.P.S. I know a lot of people are doing Blog Every Day August, and I would love to do that as well, but with my job, I can rarely guarantee that I'll actually be able to get on a computer and have time to blog every day. I will try my best to blog as often as I can, but you understand why that isn't always possible.
So what's new in my world? Well, today is day five of session five. We only have two more sessions left. How is that possible?! It completely blows my mind how quickly the summer is going. I've been here for almost 70 days! It feels like I just got here a couple weeks ago! Part of me is kind of happy about how fast some things are going, but a bigger part of me so doesn't want the summer to end! I absolutely love the other people I work with and I seriously can't imagine leaving and not seeing some of them ever again! I don't want that to happen!!
So this session I have an english cabin again! I've been with french the last two sessions, and it was great, my french got so much better. But it's so much more convenient to have english kids. When I had a french cabin, when I wanted to say something, I had to figure it out and then translate it in my mind before I could say it. Now when I want to say something, I can just say it! Imagine that! haha
Books read this year: 32
love <3
P.S. My co-counsellors so far this summer have been Shine, Whisper, Oups!, Gooby, and now Sage. I'm really happy the way things have worked out for me so far. Some people have been better to work with than others, but I have had a really great summer and I honestly can't complain! :)
P.P.S. I know a lot of people are doing Blog Every Day August, and I would love to do that as well, but with my job, I can rarely guarantee that I'll actually be able to get on a computer and have time to blog every day. I will try my best to blog as often as I can, but you understand why that isn't always possible.
Sunday, July 4, 2010
frenchin' it up!
Hello cyber friends! I know it's been a while since I posted, but a) it's the summer, and b) I work basically 24 hours a day for ten days, with two days off between each 10-day session. Therefore, my writing time is not a whole lot. So I think I'm doing a pretty good job so far!
Happy belated Canada Day to all my fellow Canadians, and Happy July Fourth to all my southern neighbours! What are you guys doing/did you do to celebrate this holiday? Let me know! I finished work at noon on Tuesday, and drove down to Halifax with a bunch of friends for our break. We stayed until Friday morning, when we had to come back for work. It was actually so much fun! We stayed at a hostel, which wasn't really cheaper than a hotel, unfortunately, but it was fun because we were all together, and the hostel had a kitchen, so we got to make our own dinners instead of spending way too much money at a restaurant! It really was a lot of fun, though. And Thursday night, we all sat on Citadel Hill and watched the fireworks, which was good but not nearly long enough. Either way, it was a really great break!
So session three started on Friday! And I have a French cabin. Yay... Just kidding, I actually love it! I mean, I speak French, sort of, so it's not completely difficult. Plus my co-counsellor, Oups!, is pretty much the best co ever. She's French first language, which makes it a lot easier. And I straight up told the kids that I was English and some things I wouldn't understand, but that I would try, and I want to improve my French. They're all really nice and so patient with me, I love it! I have a feeling that this is going to be a really good session. Not as good as session one, because that was just ridiculously amazing, but I think this will be a close second!
Books read this year: 29 (I am actually less that 50 pages away from finishing numkber 30!)
love <3
Happy belated Canada Day to all my fellow Canadians, and Happy July Fourth to all my southern neighbours! What are you guys doing/did you do to celebrate this holiday? Let me know! I finished work at noon on Tuesday, and drove down to Halifax with a bunch of friends for our break. We stayed until Friday morning, when we had to come back for work. It was actually so much fun! We stayed at a hostel, which wasn't really cheaper than a hotel, unfortunately, but it was fun because we were all together, and the hostel had a kitchen, so we got to make our own dinners instead of spending way too much money at a restaurant! It really was a lot of fun, though. And Thursday night, we all sat on Citadel Hill and watched the fireworks, which was good but not nearly long enough. Either way, it was a really great break!
So session three started on Friday! And I have a French cabin. Yay... Just kidding, I actually love it! I mean, I speak French, sort of, so it's not completely difficult. Plus my co-counsellor, Oups!, is pretty much the best co ever. She's French first language, which makes it a lot easier. And I straight up told the kids that I was English and some things I wouldn't understand, but that I would try, and I want to improve my French. They're all really nice and so patient with me, I love it! I have a feeling that this is going to be a really good session. Not as good as session one, because that was just ridiculously amazing, but I think this will be a close second!
Books read this year: 29 (I am actually less that 50 pages away from finishing numkber 30!)
love <3
Saturday, June 19, 2010
Ohio!
Session one is done!!! I can't believe that one seventh of my summer is over. I've been at camp for four weeks! It does not feel like it's been that long at all! We had two weeks of training, then ten days of campers. Even though this camp is now a bilingual camp, the first session was kids from the States, so it was all English kids. They were some of the sweetest kids I've ever met! My group was the oldest girls, four of five of them were thirteen, and the fifth girl is turning thirteen in September. I absolutely loved them with all my heart! Saying goodbye to them was the hardest thing I've ever done. This is my fourth summer working at a residential camp and this is the first time I've ever cried saying bye to campers. I've been sad, but I've never cried. I am actually going to miss them so much. They've all promised me they were going to write me at camp this summer, and hopefully we'll stay in touch for a long time. A couple of the girls told me that my co, Shine*, and I were like their second moms. Does that not break your heart?! One of the sweetest things anyone has ever told me! I love my job!
So Thursday, I got to go to Columbus, Ohio to escort a bunch of the kids home and it was actually a lot of fun! It was my first time being in Ohio, and even though we didn't get to see much, it was still fun. We left camp at 6:45 Thursday morning, went to the Halifax airport, flew from Halifax to Toronto, nearly missed our flight, flew from Toronto to Columbus on the smallest plane in the world. Then we took a bus to get the kids back home, then went back to the hotel. We got there around seven at night, and I was way too tired to even do anything. Then we left the next morning at 10:30, flew from Columbus to Toronto, had a couple hours in the Toronto airport, where I spent way too much money (but I got paid yesterday, so whatever). Then we flew from Toronto to Halifax, and drove back to camp. I don't think I have ever been so tired in my life. It's not like we were doing anything extremely tiring. but traveling so much in such a short time does drain you. Four airplanes in two days?! Exhausting!!
So session two starts tomorrow! I'm pretty stoked, I think I've got a pretty good group of girls, and my co, Whisper*, seems pretty good. She's not much of a leader, from what I can tell, but I'm really a leader, so I feel like we'll balance each other out.
Days until Canada Day: 12
Books read this summer: 28
love <3
*We have camp names at this camp. Mine is Boomer...because I'm loud! :)
So Thursday, I got to go to Columbus, Ohio to escort a bunch of the kids home and it was actually a lot of fun! It was my first time being in Ohio, and even though we didn't get to see much, it was still fun. We left camp at 6:45 Thursday morning, went to the Halifax airport, flew from Halifax to Toronto, nearly missed our flight, flew from Toronto to Columbus on the smallest plane in the world. Then we took a bus to get the kids back home, then went back to the hotel. We got there around seven at night, and I was way too tired to even do anything. Then we left the next morning at 10:30, flew from Columbus to Toronto, had a couple hours in the Toronto airport, where I spent way too much money (but I got paid yesterday, so whatever). Then we flew from Toronto to Halifax, and drove back to camp. I don't think I have ever been so tired in my life. It's not like we were doing anything extremely tiring. but traveling so much in such a short time does drain you. Four airplanes in two days?! Exhausting!!
So session two starts tomorrow! I'm pretty stoked, I think I've got a pretty good group of girls, and my co, Whisper*, seems pretty good. She's not much of a leader, from what I can tell, but I'm really a leader, so I feel like we'll balance each other out.
Days until Canada Day: 12
Books read this summer: 28
love <3
*We have camp names at this camp. Mine is Boomer...because I'm loud! :)
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
Camp Day!
I don't know how many people know this, but this summer I am working with the Tim Horton Children's Foundation as a camp counsellor at one of their camps. So today was the annual Camp Day, where sales from every single coffee sold at every single Tim Hortons in the world go towards the foundation, to help send kids to camp. Because we're working for the foundation, all the counsellors spent today going to various Tim Hortons stores and trying to encourage people to buy a coffee and/or make a donation. My group made it to four different stores over the course of the day. In the morning it was really cold, but then it warmed up nicely and ended up being really sunny. I actually had so much fun today! I got to stand on the side of the road, wave posters, scream, and try to get people to come to the store. I got really into it, I'm not going to lie. It was a really good day. :)
Books read this year: 25
love <3
P.S. I don't have a lot of computer time, as there are at least twenty other people who need to use this computer. This means that I don't have time to write all about the week that I've been here. I will tell you that I am having the time of my life, and I could not be happier. When I have a chance, I will give you more detail, I promise!!
Books read this year: 25
love <3
P.S. I don't have a lot of computer time, as there are at least twenty other people who need to use this computer. This means that I don't have time to write all about the week that I've been here. I will tell you that I am having the time of my life, and I could not be happier. When I have a chance, I will give you more detail, I promise!!
Thursday, May 20, 2010
1600 km in two days...!
So the last four weeks have gone by way too quickly. I can't believe it's been four weeks since I was at school, packing up my dorm room, and moving out of Burke House. I can't believe I've been home for almost four weeks. And I really can't believe that I'm leaving again in three days.
Sunday morning, my dad and I are leaving to drive to Nova Scotia, where I will be working for the summer. We're estimating that the drive will take two days. We're hoping to get ot the other side of Quebec City on Sunday and then drive the rest of the way Monday. I'm planning on arriving at the camp Monday evening, although we don't need to be there until Tuesday morning at 11. So we have a bit of leeway, in case there's really bad traffic or something. But I really hope not. The less time I have to spend in the car with my father, the better. It's not that I don't like my dad, it's just...we have nothing in common. And we don't really get along. Growing up, I never really saw my dad much. He worked in downtown Toronto, so he always left before I even woke up in the morning, and when he got home at night, he would just watch the news or whatever was on TV. And on the weekends, he would always sleep in and nap all afternoon and watch TV. Growing up, I never spent any real time with him. And he and my mom split up when I was eleven, and he moved out. Part of me kind of wishes him and I had a better relationship, but part of me recognizes that I have an amazing relationship with my mom, and a lot of people don't have good relationships with either of their parents, so I'm pretty lucky.
Anyway, when my dad and I only spend a few hours together, and there's other people around, we're fine. But spending two whole days in a car, just the two of us, well...I feel like one of us is going to end up killing the other. This seems like the only solution to driving 1600 km together in two days. Sweet. My mom says I should just put on my iPod and sleep (or pretend to sleep) but I feel like that isn't going to work very well. I don't know. I am not at all looking forward to it, but it'll be over fast enough. As long as we're both alive at the end, then I don't think either of us has the right to complain!
Books read this year: 24
Days left until camp: 5
love <3
Sunday morning, my dad and I are leaving to drive to Nova Scotia, where I will be working for the summer. We're estimating that the drive will take two days. We're hoping to get ot the other side of Quebec City on Sunday and then drive the rest of the way Monday. I'm planning on arriving at the camp Monday evening, although we don't need to be there until Tuesday morning at 11. So we have a bit of leeway, in case there's really bad traffic or something. But I really hope not. The less time I have to spend in the car with my father, the better. It's not that I don't like my dad, it's just...we have nothing in common. And we don't really get along. Growing up, I never really saw my dad much. He worked in downtown Toronto, so he always left before I even woke up in the morning, and when he got home at night, he would just watch the news or whatever was on TV. And on the weekends, he would always sleep in and nap all afternoon and watch TV. Growing up, I never spent any real time with him. And he and my mom split up when I was eleven, and he moved out. Part of me kind of wishes him and I had a better relationship, but part of me recognizes that I have an amazing relationship with my mom, and a lot of people don't have good relationships with either of their parents, so I'm pretty lucky.
Anyway, when my dad and I only spend a few hours together, and there's other people around, we're fine. But spending two whole days in a car, just the two of us, well...I feel like one of us is going to end up killing the other. This seems like the only solution to driving 1600 km together in two days. Sweet. My mom says I should just put on my iPod and sleep (or pretend to sleep) but I feel like that isn't going to work very well. I don't know. I am not at all looking forward to it, but it'll be over fast enough. As long as we're both alive at the end, then I don't think either of us has the right to complain!
Books read this year: 24
Days left until camp: 5
love <3
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
Runawayyyy!
Today was a pretty good day. I got to spend part of the afternoon with one of my best friends from high school, Jacquie. We haven't seen much of each other in the last two years, just because I've been so far away for such a long time. So I actually haven't seen her since last August, I think. Considering we saw each other every single day in high school, this is a big deal. But it was fun. We just went to the mall and walked around, window shopped, that sort of thing. There was a surprising number of people at the mall, considering it was the middle of the afternoon on a Wednesday in May. I mean, don't people work anymore?! Seriously! I figured that there would be hardly anyone there, just because of the time of day. Oh, but I was wrong. It was weird.
While we were at the mall, I picked up the book Runaway by Meg Cabot. It is the third book in the Airhead series. It just came out yesterday and I am so excited to read this book! I loved Airhead and Being Nikki and I know this book is going to be amazing. But I'm not going to read it until I leave for camp, just because I have no idea what I'm going to read this summer! All my good books are still in Newfoundland, and when I'm home, I get most of my books from the library, but I obviously can't do that while I'm away. So I'm searching my room to find books that I own that I can take with me this summer. Kind of ruins my plans to not reread any books I had already read for the rest of this year, but whatever. I really have no other choice.
Books read this year: 23*
Days left until camp: 13
love <3
*I read Looking for Alaska by John Green, and the first two books in the Jessica Darling series by Megan McCafferty. I am currently reading the third book, Charming Thirds.
While we were at the mall, I picked up the book Runaway by Meg Cabot. It is the third book in the Airhead series. It just came out yesterday and I am so excited to read this book! I loved Airhead and Being Nikki and I know this book is going to be amazing. But I'm not going to read it until I leave for camp, just because I have no idea what I'm going to read this summer! All my good books are still in Newfoundland, and when I'm home, I get most of my books from the library, but I obviously can't do that while I'm away. So I'm searching my room to find books that I own that I can take with me this summer. Kind of ruins my plans to not reread any books I had already read for the rest of this year, but whatever. I really have no other choice.
Books read this year: 23*
Days left until camp: 13
love <3
*I read Looking for Alaska by John Green, and the first two books in the Jessica Darling series by Megan McCafferty. I am currently reading the third book, Charming Thirds.
Sunday, May 9, 2010
Mother's Day
I say this without one smidge of embarrassment: My mom is my best friend. Her and I have been there for each other through everything. After I was born, she quit her job and made her own business so she could work from home and always be there for me, and she has really lived up to this. She was there for me for every single thing that has happened in my life. She has always been amazingly supposrtive of everything I've done. When I wanted to move halfway across the country for university, she never once tried to sway me towards a school closer to home; she wanted me to be happy, even if that meant only getting to see me three times a year. I know that she would do anything for me, and I would do the same for her, without a doubt. So today, and every day, Kerry Colleen Delaney, I love you! :)
Books read this year: 22
Days left until camp: 16
love <3
Books read this year: 22
Days left until camp: 16
love <3
Saturday, May 1, 2010
BEDM? ...yea right
I am the worst Blog Every Day in April blogger ever. I genuinely tried to make it to the computer yesterday to blog something-anything!-for the last day of April. But apparently, I was very busy yesterday. I didn't even do that much, but I did not make it on the computer at all. I'm very sorry. I wish I could tell you that I've been doing really cool stuff this last week, and that's why I haven't been blogging every day, like I promised I would. I really wish I could. But, alas, I cannot. This week has consisted of the kinds of things you do after being away for nearly four months: unpacking, pretending to unpack, dentist appointments, shopping, chiropractic appointments, babysitting the cutest kids in the entire world, sleeping a lot, hanging out with the cutest dog in the world. I've barely even seen some of my friends! And I have been home for almost six days! There is something seriously wrong with this picture. But I also leave again in three weeks for camp, and I won't be back until the end of August, so I have very little time do get lots of things done.
There is literally nothing else to talk about. My dad decided to show us his extremelty jerk-y side again this week, but what else is new?! Also, boys are idiots. I feel like this needs to be emphasized rather strongly. Anyone else agree?
Books read this year: 20
Days left until camp: 24
love <3
There is literally nothing else to talk about. My dad decided to show us his extremelty jerk-y side again this week, but what else is new?! Also, boys are idiots. I feel like this needs to be emphasized rather strongly. Anyone else agree?
Books read this year: 20
Days left until camp: 24
love <3
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
Shoooorts
Fail. It is exponentially harder to blog every day when I'm home. I was only on my computer once yesterday, in the morning, and only very briefly. Fortunately April is almost over, so then I won't have to feel guilty for missing a day or two. Also, I'm fairly certain that, now that exams are over and people no longer need a reason to procrastinate, no one reads this. Whatever.
So yesterday morning, my mom and I went and got our new passport pictures taken (I hate passport pictures-you aren't allowed to smile! My picture looks nothing like me!) and went and submitted my application for my new passport. I wish I could say I was going somewhere exciting this summer, that requires a passport, but really...I might have to go to the States for a couple days. That's it. Then I drove my mom to pick up her car, which was having some work done on it. Then we went to Old Navy and I got four new pairs of shorts for the summer. We also stopped at Chapters and I bought Being Nikki, the sequel to Airhead, by Meg Cabot. The sequel to Being Nikki, Runaway comes out in a couple weeks, and I'm going to get that one too.
After we were done shopping, we went out for lunch at this place called Teriyaki House. It's all-you-can-eat sushi for, like, twelve bucks. Let's just say, we almost definitely ate our money's worth. It was delicious, though. I've been dreaming about it since last August, which was the last time I was there.
Books read this year: 20*
Days left until camp: 27
love <3
*This morning, I finished Teen Idol by Meg Cabot and I started Looking for Alaska by John Green. I'll let you know what I think!
So yesterday morning, my mom and I went and got our new passport pictures taken (I hate passport pictures-you aren't allowed to smile! My picture looks nothing like me!) and went and submitted my application for my new passport. I wish I could say I was going somewhere exciting this summer, that requires a passport, but really...I might have to go to the States for a couple days. That's it. Then I drove my mom to pick up her car, which was having some work done on it. Then we went to Old Navy and I got four new pairs of shorts for the summer. We also stopped at Chapters and I bought Being Nikki, the sequel to Airhead, by Meg Cabot. The sequel to Being Nikki, Runaway comes out in a couple weeks, and I'm going to get that one too.
After we were done shopping, we went out for lunch at this place called Teriyaki House. It's all-you-can-eat sushi for, like, twelve bucks. Let's just say, we almost definitely ate our money's worth. It was delicious, though. I've been dreaming about it since last August, which was the last time I was there.
Books read this year: 20*
Days left until camp: 27
love <3
*This morning, I finished Teen Idol by Meg Cabot and I started Looking for Alaska by John Green. I'll let you know what I think!
Monday, April 26, 2010
Travels
Yea, sue me. I missed a day. I think I have a pretty reasonable excuse, as I was travelling all day. Yesterday morning I was in Newfoundland. Now I'm home, in Ontario, and very happy! Yea, that's really all I have to say. I am home, and happy! I also have a lot of stuff to do in the next month, and I don't know how that's going to happen! Oh well, I'll figure something out...hopefully!
So today is one of my best friend's birthday, and I'm so sad I can't spend time with her today. I haven't seen her in months, because I've been away at university, but I want to see her very badly! This is what happens when you move far away for school lol.
Books read this year: 19
Days left until camp: 29
love <3
So today is one of my best friend's birthday, and I'm so sad I can't spend time with her today. I haven't seen her in months, because I've been away at university, but I want to see her very badly! This is what happens when you move far away for school lol.
Books read this year: 19
Days left until camp: 29
love <3
Saturday, April 24, 2010
Online check-in
Today was a nice day. We got to sleep in, which for my mom means eight o'clock. Woo. We got ready, had some breakfast, and chatted with some of the other people staying at the B&B. It was nice. There's a whole big family of them, and they're having a birthday party tonight for the mother, which we were planning on crashing, but are now invited to. Should be...fun.
After breakfast, we walked downtown to do some shopping. It was actually a lot of fun. We didn't buy a whole lot, but we got some nice stuff. It started to rain a little bit towards the end, but that didn't really matter. It meant less people were out and about, so the stores weren't as busy. Then we had a really good lunch, which was supposed to be my treat, but the debit machines decided not to work, and fortunately we had enough cash. At least I tried to treat...
We're back now, and just did the online check-in for our flight tomorrow. I can't believe I'm actually going home tomorrow. This semester went by so quickly, but I'm so excited to go home. Only for a month, but it's better than nothing!
Books read this year: 18
Days left until home: 1
Days left until camp: 31
love <3
After breakfast, we walked downtown to do some shopping. It was actually a lot of fun. We didn't buy a whole lot, but we got some nice stuff. It started to rain a little bit towards the end, but that didn't really matter. It meant less people were out and about, so the stores weren't as busy. Then we had a really good lunch, which was supposed to be my treat, but the debit machines decided not to work, and fortunately we had enough cash. At least I tried to treat...
We're back now, and just did the online check-in for our flight tomorrow. I can't believe I'm actually going home tomorrow. This semester went by so quickly, but I'm so excited to go home. Only for a month, but it's better than nothing!
Books read this year: 18
Days left until home: 1
Days left until camp: 31
love <3
Friday, April 23, 2010
Bay Roberts
Today was such a fun day! I spent it with one of my very best friends from university. Us, and our moms, spent the day in her hometown. It's just a small commuunity about a half hour outside of the city, but somehow, during a year and a half of friendship, I've never made it out there. But today we did, and it was gorgeous! We wanted to see a moose (we didn't), an iceberg (there aren't any-no ice!) and a whale (it's too early in the season, but we think we saw one! It was off the the distance, so we're not sure...but there's no one to tell us it wasn't a whale, so we're saying it was!). All in all, it was a really good day, and we had a lot of fun.
Last night, we went downtown, and actually spent some time with the parents of the lead singer of Stereos!! When they were in town earlier in the week for the Junos and for the concert, the lead singer, Pat, stayed at the same bed and breakfast that we're staying at! He was gone by the time we checked in, but his parents are still here, so we went out with them last night. His mother even took my mailing address and said she's going to get Pat to sign something and send it to me! How exciting is that?! It was a pretty good night, all in all.
Books read this year: 18 (still working on Crow Lake)
Days left until home: 2
love <3
Last night, we went downtown, and actually spent some time with the parents of the lead singer of Stereos!! When they were in town earlier in the week for the Junos and for the concert, the lead singer, Pat, stayed at the same bed and breakfast that we're staying at! He was gone by the time we checked in, but his parents are still here, so we went out with them last night. His mother even took my mailing address and said she's going to get Pat to sign something and send it to me! How exciting is that?! It was a pretty good night, all in all.
Books read this year: 18 (still working on Crow Lake)
Days left until home: 2
love <3
Thursday, April 22, 2010
busyyy
I totally don't have time to be posting right now. Moved out of res this morning. That was sad. Went and saw my house for next year with my mom and signed the lease! Yay! Tonight I'm going out, and that is pretty much it. If I have time tomorrow or Saturday, I will go into more detail!
Days left until home: 3
love <3
Days left until home: 3
love <3
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