So I had just a really, really amazing weekend. I went away for the weekend, on a retreat, with the Christian Fellowship at my school. I really couldn't afford to go, both money-wise and time-wise. But my mom lent me some money to go, and school...still sucks, and this week will still kill me, but I don't think it'll be that bad anymore.
I love going on the retreats. I always feel like I get so much closer to God when I'm out there, and I'm not sure why. It might be because I spend two and a half days with a bunch of other Christians and it's hard to not get closer when you're with that many people who have the same beliefs. It might be because, getting out of the city and away from all the distractions just clears my mind and lets me focus on the things that are actually important in my life in the long run, not the short term stuff, like school and Facebook drama, and going downtown and just stupid stuff. As I have been raised Christian my entire life, it's a huge part of who I am and I want to be an equally huge part of who I will be for the rest of my life. I've struggled a lot with God and how I really feel about all of it, mostly in the last 7-10 years. I've gone through a lot of hard stuff, and there was always this voice in my mind, telling me that the God of the Bible would not let me suffer the way I was. I realize now that that is completely false, and all the stuff I went through has made me exactly who I am today.
At the retreat, the focus of the weekend was the book Song of Solomon. For those of you who don't know, this very short book is about Solomon, the king, finding a woman he wants to marry. It details their "dating", the wedding day (and night) and their marriage. It was a good book to study, although most of the people on the retreat were not in relationships, which made discussions very short. But it made me realize something: I'm happy being single. I've been single for a while, and for some reason it always felt like I was missing out. I would talk to my friends who were in relationshops and they were always so happy and things were always going so well and part of me was always jealous, at least a little bit. I would always wonder why I couldn't have that same happiness with someone. Was there something wrong with me? Was I destined to be single forever? These kinds of thoughts actually took up way too much space in my mind. But I realized this weekend that, you know what, I am single right now. But I'm happy! Since this summer, I've been the happiest I think I've ever been. I miss camp with ever fibre of my being, but instead of going into intense withdrawl and getting depressed, I've taken the happiness from the summer and brought it into my real life. I am so genuinely happy now, and I love it. Friends from school, who didn't see me all summer, have commented that I seem like a completely different person than I was back in the spring. And I know that the only real change is that now I'm happy!
High: the whole weekend: mostly bonding with the other people and forming deeper friendships that will last.
Low: I actually don't think I have a low...maybe doing laundry today: it has taken approximately seven hours. Yikes!
Thankful: for the chance to spend the weekend away and grow as a person.
Books read this year: 37
love <3
Sunday, September 26, 2010
Thursday, September 16, 2010
61!
So, I don't know if anyone was paying attention, but if you were, you might have noticed that I just posted three blogs within an hour. I wish I could say it was because I'm just the most amazing blogger ever, and I can just sit at my desk and these amazing thoughts just flow from the tips of my fingers and onto the keyboard. Yea, I wish. Actually, what happened was that we didn't have Internet at our house until today, so even though I've been able to use the computers at school to go on the Internet and check my email and stuff, I didn't really want to use up the little time I had to blog. Plus, when I feel like I have to blog, without any ideas about what I want to write about, things usually end poorly. So I was typing up my blogs in Word on my laptop when I was at home, and then copy and pasted all of them today and posted them. So that is why my archive will say I posted four times today.
So tomorrow is Friday. Tomorrow is actually my dad's birthday! I have to make sure not to forget about that. He's turning 61. 61!!! Can you believe that?! Well, you actually probably can, as I'm fairly certain that no one who reads this blog has ever actually met my father. He was 40 when I was born, and as I'm turning 21 (in 4 months exactly! wow!), it makes sense that he's 61. Yea, my parents were both pretty old when they had me. They had both been married to other people before they married each other, so I guess that explains it.
I have no idea why I was just talking about my parents' love lives. Anyway...
High: that we got Internet!!!!! And that it was actually sunny, and warm, for the whole day today!
Low: I don't think I have a low today...
Thankful: for the Internet. (that was super lame, I'm sorry. I'll think of something really amazing for next time)
Books read this year: 37
love <3
So tomorrow is Friday. Tomorrow is actually my dad's birthday! I have to make sure not to forget about that. He's turning 61. 61!!! Can you believe that?! Well, you actually probably can, as I'm fairly certain that no one who reads this blog has ever actually met my father. He was 40 when I was born, and as I'm turning 21 (in 4 months exactly! wow!), it makes sense that he's 61. Yea, my parents were both pretty old when they had me. They had both been married to other people before they married each other, so I guess that explains it.
I have no idea why I was just talking about my parents' love lives. Anyway...
High: that we got Internet!!!!! And that it was actually sunny, and warm, for the whole day today!
Low: I don't think I have a low today...
Thankful: for the Internet. (that was super lame, I'm sorry. I'll think of something really amazing for next time)
Books read this year: 37
love <3
internet!
[Note: This was written on Wednesday, September 15]
Today is our last day without Internet! This time tomorrow we will have Internet in our house!! I can’t wait to not have to go to the library just to check my email and stuff. I mean, I know it’s not the end of the world, not having Internet at home. But it really is such a huge convenience to be able to go on the Internet whenever I want.
So other than the ridiculously exciting news that we’re finally going to get Internet, not much else is new. I’ve now been living in this house for over a week, and I’m having a pretty good time. Even though I was really unsure about living in res again or moving off campus, I’m really happy with my decision. When I went to visit res on the weekend, I realized that I could not see myself living there again, for a third year. I mean, I had two really great years there, but it was time to move out. Plus, I’m really happy with my house and the girls I live with. Right choice: Seana.
High: I saw actual blue sky today. Blue sky! And it was there for…five minutes!
Low: that for, like, the seventh day in a row, it rained today.
Thankful: that, not only am I starting assignments weeks before they're due, I actually know how to do them!
Books read this year: 37
love <3
Today is our last day without Internet! This time tomorrow we will have Internet in our house!! I can’t wait to not have to go to the library just to check my email and stuff. I mean, I know it’s not the end of the world, not having Internet at home. But it really is such a huge convenience to be able to go on the Internet whenever I want.
So other than the ridiculously exciting news that we’re finally going to get Internet, not much else is new. I’ve now been living in this house for over a week, and I’m having a pretty good time. Even though I was really unsure about living in res again or moving off campus, I’m really happy with my decision. When I went to visit res on the weekend, I realized that I could not see myself living there again, for a third year. I mean, I had two really great years there, but it was time to move out. Plus, I’m really happy with my house and the girls I live with. Right choice: Seana.
High: I saw actual blue sky today. Blue sky! And it was there for…five minutes!
Low: that for, like, the seventh day in a row, it rained today.
Thankful: that, not only am I starting assignments weeks before they're due, I actually know how to do them!
Books read this year: 37
love <3
New Year's Resolution--Update!
[Note: This was written on Sunday, September 12]
As some of you may know, one of my New Year’s resolutions this year was to read 50 books before the end of the year. I am currently in the middle of number 37, but I thought you guys might like to know what books I’ve read so far.
16. The Second Summer of the Sisterhood
17. Girls in Pants
18. Forever in Blue
19. Crow Lake
20. Teen Idol
21. Looking for Alaska
22. Sloppy Firsts
23. Second Helpings
24. Charmed Thirds
25. Fourth Comings
26. Being Nikki
27. Runaway
28. Angels Watching Over Me
29. Lifted Up by Angels
30. Until Angels Close My Eyes
31. All-American Girl
32. Gossip Girl
33. You Know You Love Me*
34. All I Want is Everything*
35. Because I’m Worth It*
36. I Like It Like That*
37. It Had To Be You*
So those are the books that I’ve read so far this year. I still have 13 books left to read, which I don’t think will be a problem at all. I still want to reread all four Twilight books, which I haven’t read in two years. I also want to read The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo by Stieg Larsson. One of my good friends this summer was reading it and she told me I should read it. It also has a sequel, I’m not sure what it’s called, but I want to read it as well.
High: I got to talk to my mom today for the first time since I left. We had a lovely hour-long conversation.
Low: that I didn’t even leave the house because, guess what, it’s still raining. I hope it stops tomorrow!
Thankful: that the five of us who live here get along so well together.
Books read this year: 37
love <3
*These are all books in the Gossip Girl series.
As some of you may know, one of my New Year’s resolutions this year was to read 50 books before the end of the year. I am currently in the middle of number 37, but I thought you guys might like to know what books I’ve read so far.
16. The Second Summer of the Sisterhood
17. Girls in Pants
18. Forever in Blue
19. Crow Lake
20. Teen Idol
21. Looking for Alaska
22. Sloppy Firsts
23. Second Helpings
24. Charmed Thirds
25. Fourth Comings
26. Being Nikki
27. Runaway
28. Angels Watching Over Me
29. Lifted Up by Angels
30. Until Angels Close My Eyes
31. All-American Girl
32. Gossip Girl
33. You Know You Love Me*
34. All I Want is Everything*
35. Because I’m Worth It*
36. I Like It Like That*
37. It Had To Be You*
So those are the books that I’ve read so far this year. I still have 13 books left to read, which I don’t think will be a problem at all. I still want to reread all four Twilight books, which I haven’t read in two years. I also want to read The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo by Stieg Larsson. One of my good friends this summer was reading it and she told me I should read it. It also has a sequel, I’m not sure what it’s called, but I want to read it as well.
High: I got to talk to my mom today for the first time since I left. We had a lovely hour-long conversation.
Low: that I didn’t even leave the house because, guess what, it’s still raining. I hope it stops tomorrow!
Thankful: that the five of us who live here get along so well together.
Books read this year: 37
love <3
*These are all books in the Gossip Girl series.
soulmates
[Note: This was written on Saturday, September 11.]
The first week of school is done. How did that happen?! It feels like just yesterday that classes had ended for the year, last year, and the summer was getting started. Now, it’s September and school has started again and somehow I’m in my third year. I really don’t know how that happened! Well, now I’m just being sentimental. I don’t like when things happen too quickly.
So, this is completely out of nowhere, but I’m listening to music right now and the song You Belong with Me by Taylor Swift just came on, and it got me thinking: do you think that, somewhere in the world, there’s someone who “belongs” with you? Like, someone you’re destined to be with forever? I guess I’m asking if you believe in soul mates or not. I do. I fully believe that, somewhere in the world, there is a man that I am destined to spend the rest of my life with, and I believe that every single person in the world is destined to be with someone. But I also believe that sometimes, people don’t find the person their destined to be with. I believe that sometimes, for whatever reason, you don’t find your soul mate. I’m actually really scared that’ll happen to me. I don’t know why, I have no reason to believe that I won’t find him. I guess, after seeing my parents split up, even though it went well for both of them and they still get along surprisingly well, I just really don’t want to get divorced. But if I find my soul mate, we obviously won’t get divorced. But I guess no one ever wants to get divorced. Anyway, let me know, in the comments, if you believe in soul mates or not.
I don’t really have that much else to write about. The first week of classes was OK, nothing too exciting. I finally finished unpacking all the stuff I have and am now almost done decorating my new room. It looks pretty good so far, if I do say so myself. My roommates are really nice too. There are five of us living in the house, so four other girls. I didn’t rent the house with any of them, I just got my room. But I already knew three of the other girls and I’m getting to know the fourth. I feel weirdly awkward around them and I’m not sure why. I feel like I have nothing to say to any of them, which is really weird. I mean, I love to talk, I do it all the time. And yet…I don’t know, maybe I’m just really bad at small talk. I’m not very good at thinking of things to talk about. I don’t know. I really like the other girls; I’m just the weird, awkward one. Sounds right.
High: this hasn’t happened yet, but tonight I’m going to the movies with a couple friends and one of them I haven’t seen since the spring, so getting to see her!
Low: that it is still raining. Still! And, of course, genius over here left her raincoat at home. Big surprise.
Thankful: that I know my way around the kitchen and have been able to make actually good food. I seriously hope this lasts!
Books read this year: 36
love <3
The first week of school is done. How did that happen?! It feels like just yesterday that classes had ended for the year, last year, and the summer was getting started. Now, it’s September and school has started again and somehow I’m in my third year. I really don’t know how that happened! Well, now I’m just being sentimental. I don’t like when things happen too quickly.
So, this is completely out of nowhere, but I’m listening to music right now and the song You Belong with Me by Taylor Swift just came on, and it got me thinking: do you think that, somewhere in the world, there’s someone who “belongs” with you? Like, someone you’re destined to be with forever? I guess I’m asking if you believe in soul mates or not. I do. I fully believe that, somewhere in the world, there is a man that I am destined to spend the rest of my life with, and I believe that every single person in the world is destined to be with someone. But I also believe that sometimes, people don’t find the person their destined to be with. I believe that sometimes, for whatever reason, you don’t find your soul mate. I’m actually really scared that’ll happen to me. I don’t know why, I have no reason to believe that I won’t find him. I guess, after seeing my parents split up, even though it went well for both of them and they still get along surprisingly well, I just really don’t want to get divorced. But if I find my soul mate, we obviously won’t get divorced. But I guess no one ever wants to get divorced. Anyway, let me know, in the comments, if you believe in soul mates or not.
I don’t really have that much else to write about. The first week of classes was OK, nothing too exciting. I finally finished unpacking all the stuff I have and am now almost done decorating my new room. It looks pretty good so far, if I do say so myself. My roommates are really nice too. There are five of us living in the house, so four other girls. I didn’t rent the house with any of them, I just got my room. But I already knew three of the other girls and I’m getting to know the fourth. I feel weirdly awkward around them and I’m not sure why. I feel like I have nothing to say to any of them, which is really weird. I mean, I love to talk, I do it all the time. And yet…I don’t know, maybe I’m just really bad at small talk. I’m not very good at thinking of things to talk about. I don’t know. I really like the other girls; I’m just the weird, awkward one. Sounds right.
High: this hasn’t happened yet, but tonight I’m going to the movies with a couple friends and one of them I haven’t seen since the spring, so getting to see her!
Low: that it is still raining. Still! And, of course, genius over here left her raincoat at home. Big surprise.
Thankful: that I know my way around the kitchen and have been able to make actually good food. I seriously hope this lasts!
Books read this year: 36
love <3
Wednesday, September 8, 2010
first day!
I so do not have a lot of time to be posting this, so I apologize in advance! I just moved into my new house yesterday, but we don't have Internet yet, so even though I wanted to write something yesterday (instead of unpacking!) I could not. I was very sad.
I have a question: how do I have so much stuff? It's a rhetorical question, but really. I'm just starting my third year at MUN, but you would think I'd been living here for at least ten years, with all the stuff I have! I tried to unpack yesterday, I really did. It did not go well. Kay, but I need to pick up some shelves this weekend. So there's no point unpacking the stuff that's going to go on the shelves, just to move it again. Probably could have unpacked my clothes, though...Oops... :)
High: moving into my new house, and seeing some of my Newfie friends again!
Low: school.
Thankful: that I made it to Newfoundland safely, and that I have a place to live!
Books read this year: 36
love <3
I have a question: how do I have so much stuff? It's a rhetorical question, but really. I'm just starting my third year at MUN, but you would think I'd been living here for at least ten years, with all the stuff I have! I tried to unpack yesterday, I really did. It did not go well. Kay, but I need to pick up some shelves this weekend. So there's no point unpacking the stuff that's going to go on the shelves, just to move it again. Probably could have unpacked my clothes, though...Oops... :)
High: moving into my new house, and seeing some of my Newfie friends again!
Low: school.
Thankful: that I made it to Newfoundland safely, and that I have a place to live!
Books read this year: 36
love <3
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